Hello! I'm back and for those who can still remember me, I used to be active in my journal way back when I was still a Uni student till I got married.
I decided to end my journal thread just because I felt that I had to put a conclusion somehow... and I guess it was the best time to end it.
Anyway, this is not another journal thread ... just a long vent about my baby and pregnancy.
My issue is a bit silly I know but I just really have to get it off my chest.
I am pregnant for 3 months now. Let me say that me and hubby have it all planned and we're excited to become dad and mum soon.
Another person who's really excited for us is my mother-in-law. I'm telling you now that she's a nice, full of life, happy type of person. I have no problem with her and although I still can't feel comfortable with her (I've only met her thrice)... we occasionally interact through social media. She's the type who says hello first. I'm really bad with reaching out to her (or people in general) so I guess she's the one who puts a bit of effort to ask 'how are you' whenever she and hubby talk on the phone. I'm giving this intro to let you know that truly, she is a good person.
If there's one quirk my mum-in-law has.... or let's say their family.... is that they are vain people. Vain in a sense that they find themselves gorgeous, pretty, beautiful, highly attractive etc etc. Actually, this vanity applies mostly to the females in my husband's family.
Not to be hypocrite, my husband is vain, I'm vain as well... but my hubby's female family members and relatives are confidently almost conceitedly vain. And to be honest, they have the right to their vanity because compared to average people, they do have the 'attractive genes'. For a start, my hubby is a handsome guy and whenever he post his pictures on Facebook, his mom always 'jokingly' say that he got his looks from her.
In general, being vain was never an issue for me. But this vanity issue is quite starting to be a big deal for me since I got pregnant.
I just remember one instance when my mum-in-law jokingly said that she hopes me and hubby's future child get my hubby's 'eyes'. Honestly, I wanted my child to have my hubby's eyes. Just to defend myself, I'm not ugly and I'm quite attractive as well (please don't take this wrong, I'm not trying to show-off)... but I admit that hubby's eyes are pretty. However, hearing those words from my mum-in-law kinda irked me a bit though I shrugged it off quickly. (It's something that she shouldn't have mentioned, you know, just respect for me atleast, although I know she didn't intentionally offend me)
Now that the 'baby thing' is for real, the vanity issue is starting to irk me again. Recently, I saw a conversation with my mum-in-law and hubby. Hubby was joking that he thinks our baby is a boy and he looks like him (referring to the 12 weeks ultrasound that I had yesterday, so it was really meant to be funny). Now mum-in-law answered "Then he'll be handsome too".
I know that was a simple, no-malice conversation. But for some reason, it's making me defensive. I can't help but remember my mum-in-law's joke before.
And because of that I now want our baby to look like me, especially my eyes (physically, me and hubby's features are almost the same except for the eyes). I know it's silly and immature.... but if the baby's eyes look more like me, I'm sure she or he will still be an attractive bub except my husband's family wouldn't be able to claim or get too much credit for our baby's look.
And in my mind I'll be like " Our baby is very pretty and looks like his/her mom . In your face mum-in-law!!!"
It's not that I'm being proud or anything. I just couldn't stand them flaunting their looks for our baby as well. Ugh! It will be a nonstop "Oooohhh.... the baby is so beautiful, she/he got our genes yada yada yada"
Seriously,I want the baby to be "OURS" not "THEIRS".