Accepting good things

tabris

New member
I seem to have a hard time accepting good opportunities or opened doors for myself, even when it should all work out in my favor.

I'm supposed to be preparing to study abroad and living with my partner within the next year, but I'm absolutely terrified. Its a massive step that I'm more ready to take and staying in my parents isn't healthy or safe. But I can't shake this unknown terror I've been holding onto..? :question:

I've studied abroad and been away for long periods of time before with no sort homesickness, so I am unsure where this is coming from. It feels like going from the kiddy pool to the deep end with no gradual slope to ease me in. I've no idea how to cope with it other than to shut down and ignore it..

Any advice on coping with this? Experiences?
 

DanielLewis

Well-known member
I've never studied abroad or even been out of my country. If I had that opportunity, I would be excited to immerse myself into a different culture. It's a good way to broaden your life experiences and understanding of the world.

What about it makes you terrified?
 

tabris

New member
I've never studied abroad or even been out of my country. If I had that opportunity, I would be excited to immerse myself into a different culture. It's a good way to broaden your life experiences and understanding of the world.

What about it makes you terrified?

You might have to take the opportunity for yourself! Its worth experiencing and is definitely tangible to anyone who's willing to work for it.
Dunno about anyone else, but my SA goes away completely when I'm abroad. My excitement overrides it or something. Always helps that the locals can't understand English, or else they might realize I'm a stuttering fool haha

Hmm.. Maybe its because I'm hoping to make my stay permanent? I wont be allowed to return home once I leave. Not that there's anything worth staying here for.
Just the thought of doing anything positive and progressive for myself makes me lock down. At times I have a full on episode over whatever it may be. I don't exactly have close circles who can cheer me on or back me up, and my parents don't support any of my choices.
 
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