DREAMINGOFD

Been logged on to this site for a while now, just never found the 'bother' to write about what it is that is on my mind, purely because I have this belief that there nothing that could help me as the feeling is so strong.

I'm bright enough to understand that I have social issues, that being I don't leave the house unless my life depends on it, or if I have to 'pick my daughter up from school! in the past 2yrs hubbys been doing it.

I have to work 4 nights of the week, I hate it, the people, the building, the 'everything'. I blame everything for my feeling so negative and the consious feeling of not wanting to be in that enviroment.

I have no idea where all this came from. I sat and thought about it for a long time, it's like it just happened, like my body decided to permenantly hibernate indoors. If I go out the garden I feel like everyones watching and gossiping about me, I don't feel comfortable at all. But I use the garden for growing veg so it's not like I use it for any socialising events like BBQ's etc.

I went to the GP he said I was depressed and needed to go on anti depressents. He put me on a few things, none of them worked. In the end i stopped them all just for the sake of staying awake throughout the day.

This year I gave up smoking, something to make me feel more positive about myself, so far that isn't working either.

Whats wrong with me?

lithium

I have similar anxiety issues as you. When I go to the store, or generally when I'm around lots of people. I just get nervous and that's how my body reacts to it. Maybe you should try some anti-anxiety medication, maybe that will help.