Sure_whynot

When someone says/does something stupid and it pisses me off, or I strongly disagree with it, then I become ridiculously motivated to "knock them down a peg". Even if I only witness it happen, and have no prior involvement in any way.

My question is... Is this motivation and "thirst" to even-up the odds a bad thing?

I thrive when people tell me that I cant do things, act arrogantly and over-estimate themselves, and when people bully other people.

Is this a self destructive personality trait to act upon?

I have to be the arrogant ******* (that i naturally am, but almost always hide) to put the "bully" in his place, does the situation justify my actions? Am I as bad as the "bully"?

Let me stress the "arrogant *******" part. Most of the time it lays dormant inside me, but when its "awoken" I guarantee you that im the biggest Prick/most amazing guy you'll ever meet.

Sure_whynot

Let me clear this up: " knock someone down a peg, or even things up" is not a pun for Physically harming someone. I ment mentally, aka verbally, cutting them down like they do to other people.

Dose that change anything? =]

& Would you still think that way If I was the person defending you?

Either way, thanks for the responce =]

Danfalc

It sounds to me just like your assertive when you come to when you think someone is being bullied or wronged.Ther can definatley be a thin line between being assertive and being an ass lol.I think we all struggle with finding a good balance.

But i think its better to stand up for what you beleive in and maybe get somthing wrong a few times or take it too far by accident than to never stand up for yourself.

Sure_whynot

Thank you, thats very true.

Thats kinda what I thought too, I just dont want to end up being angry all the time.

I asked a person for advice, on here, few days ago (SickJoke, he's a good guy.) & he sent me a video that really got me thinking. It had one line that really stuck with me; "I love everyone, because the second I start hating someone they own me." Which is very true, they make me negative, they steal my energy, they make me act differently.

I guess I just need to find the balance, because I'd never let people walk all over me. But people make mistakes, and deserve 2nd chances.

nezul

interestingly enough i would love to be able to do what you do....


i dont mean that in a im-so-pathetic-and-weak-i-cant-stand-up-for-myself sorta way, im surprisingly much stronger than most of the people who bully me and those who are equal match wouldnt dare touch me.

now a thing i discoverd, there is a line or ratio you could say (ill explain this as best i can)

the ratio goes take crap from other people: hurt people who screw with you

bullies or at least most of them are in the hurt people who screw with you section but way up the line to "i like to hurt people" it makes me feel confident.

normal people are about half way in the take crap from other people, they wont take crap for very long but they will still take crap because usually its not worth yelling/trying to hurt the otehr person.

so you gotta remember when u knock down bullies, when is it worth taking crap and when should you act to knock people down.

if you keep following a line that works like the hurt/knock down people who screw with you line, you could end up in the knock down people who i dont like and this could lead to actaully violence.

this is what im uneasy about most the time, does taking action do good or can it turn you into the very thing you tried to stop?

thats what you gotta look out for, follow a path for to long and you will end up along it.

i hope thats understandable enough, i hope it helps

Joolin

Something that I've realized over the years about being depressed is that it doesn't make me feel sad so much as numb. Depression basically just wipes away all my emotions. Therefore, even being angry can feel good, just in being that anger is a feeling. I get kind of the same way - the adrenaline of being angry is like a drug - I get super energized, my mind moves way faster, and I get a massive boost in self-esteem, so I end up being kind of an arrogant *******. My jury's still out on whether or not it's actually a bad thing - I hate being a dick but it's one of the few things that makes me feel alive.

I've always had a temper a mile thick, but ever since I stopped taking anti-depressants (Citalopram to be specific), I've noticed myself getting worked up a lot easier. At first I thought this was a good thing, as I actually started having passion for things, but now I'm starting to get annoyed at myself. I guess you really have to be careful what you wish for - I wished for real human emotions and Murphy's Law delivered.

Sure_whynot

lol... Ironically enough my last name's Murphy.

And that is a very good point, I take a.d.d pills and I feel numb & apathetic constantly as well. To feel hate or anger is refreshing because its SOMETHING rather then nothing.

lurknomore

I don't think I feel emotions very strongly, and anger is one of the ones I experience/feel the least. I just never get angry. Or I have to really be pushed before I will.

Sure_whynot

Get pissed off at something/someone. Its a rush like no other, especially when you can justify your motives. haha

aizome

i used to have the same issue, until i learnt the meaning of 'righteousness' - it helped me to turn the viciousness into a kind of firm, disarming logic, i can still 'knock people down a peg' like you say, but the end result leaves them genuinely questioning themselves instead of just feeling butthurt that somebody gave them a taste of their own medicine.


you can still kick ass as the good guy.