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is anyone else here the blacksheep of their family?
my entire life i'v been the blacksheep...im my parent's least favorite child and always have been ever since i was a kid..my brother and sister have always acted like im just an annoyance and problem for them...they dont want to admit that they are shitty siblings and have NEVER looked out for me so instead when asked about me they find ANY way to devalue me..idk if they do it so much anymore but they did it for quite a while. I dont really ever remember my brother giving me any advice or pointers on anything...he just ALWAYS wanted me to leave him alone..so i did.....it was just like I was a nuisance to him and my sister so they just avoided me as much as possible..but no one ever judged them for it...but on the other hand, if I avoid THEM I get guilt tripped by my mom...
the thing is no one knows about this and I would never tell anyone because it would just provoke a flurry of ad hominem judgements about me...so basicaly its like everyone will always just consider me to be the douchebag younger brother and i'll never be able to come out from under that slanderous title....its really demeaning..I had a hard time in my younger years and no one who really understood or tried ot give me any good guidance or advice...instead I just got judged by everyone and I think alot of shit was talked among extended family and family friends ...my past is behind me but im still trying ot figure out where ot go with the next chapter of my life. im not the kind of person to ask for help for something because Im too old for that and I like to do things on my OWN anyway.... but all I'd really want is not to be judged harshly on mistakes Iv made in the past that are actually completely forgivable...
my entire life i'v been the blacksheep...im my parent's least favorite child and always have been ever since i was a kid..my brother and sister have always acted like im just an annoyance and problem for them...they dont want to admit that they are shitty siblings and have NEVER looked out for me so instead when asked about me they find ANY way to devalue me..idk if they do it so much anymore but they did it for quite a while. I dont really ever remember my brother giving me any advice or pointers on anything...he just ALWAYS wanted me to leave him alone..so i did.....it was just like I was a nuisance to him and my sister so they just avoided me as much as possible..but no one ever judged them for it...but on the other hand, if I avoid THEM I get guilt tripped by my mom...
the thing is no one knows about this and I would never tell anyone because it would just provoke a flurry of ad hominem judgements about me...so basicaly its like everyone will always just consider me to be the douchebag younger brother and i'll never be able to come out from under that slanderous title....its really demeaning..I had a hard time in my younger years and no one who really understood or tried ot give me any good guidance or advice...instead I just got judged by everyone and I think alot of shit was talked among extended family and family friends ...my past is behind me but im still trying ot figure out where ot go with the next chapter of my life. im not the kind of person to ask for help for something because Im too old for that and I like to do things on my OWN anyway.... but all I'd really want is not to be judged harshly on mistakes Iv made in the past that are actually completely forgivable...
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