cowboyup
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*I pose a lot of questions in this post...not intentionally and not to be answered, it's more like what I am asking myself*
I've been trying to get out of my comfort zone more lately - struggling at times to push myself to just get out and go...meet new people, etc. and perhaps meet a decent person/people I could eventually 'hang out' with. Taking photos, just basically 'doing' instead of thinking of doing... I was doing good, or so I thought.
I met a couple people, husband/wife, and a guy, and then a lady who I gained courage to strike up convo first.
Anyhow, I have been on hikes and bike riding, you know, getting outside more. I am happy that I am able to push myself more and more.
One problem...
Once I get to know some of the others, the darker side comes out (we all have dark side) but what do you do when you truly are trying to improve yourself and situation and meet others with similar interests, etc., but then realize their dark side is a tad 'darker' than you are comfortable with?
Example: one person has told me some stuff that makes me scratch my head. Is this what 'real people' are all about and I've missed the boat? Is it common? Or abnormal? Or am I abnormal?
So this person has told me casually that they sometimes take a day off work to "shroom out" with others, has faked ADHD to a psychiatrist to get script for adderall and xanax, has not filed tax returns for at least maybe 10 years, has bought over 200 whippits on amazon just for kicks and giggles (no pun intended) ... the list goes on. By the way, it's not all talk, I saw the whippits - like they were bragging to me whilst showing me how heavy the box was, I saw the rx of meds, the 'shroom out' part, she only described the experience to me, so I don't know...but still.
I just sit there in bewilderment cuz I don't know what to say. I know it sounds naive on my part, I am online way more than I should be, lol, and 'read' stuff, but in reality, nope.
I finally gain courage and start to break out of my anxious, fearful shell and this is what I come up with? Granted, this person has not killed or robbed a bank (not to my knowledge haha!) but is there not a decent person that is just umm...I don't know, average? Or is this normal amongst people these days? Am I THAT out of touch?
shrugs....
mg:
I've been trying to get out of my comfort zone more lately - struggling at times to push myself to just get out and go...meet new people, etc. and perhaps meet a decent person/people I could eventually 'hang out' with. Taking photos, just basically 'doing' instead of thinking of doing... I was doing good, or so I thought.
I met a couple people, husband/wife, and a guy, and then a lady who I gained courage to strike up convo first.
Anyhow, I have been on hikes and bike riding, you know, getting outside more. I am happy that I am able to push myself more and more.
One problem...
Once I get to know some of the others, the darker side comes out (we all have dark side) but what do you do when you truly are trying to improve yourself and situation and meet others with similar interests, etc., but then realize their dark side is a tad 'darker' than you are comfortable with?
Example: one person has told me some stuff that makes me scratch my head. Is this what 'real people' are all about and I've missed the boat? Is it common? Or abnormal? Or am I abnormal?
So this person has told me casually that they sometimes take a day off work to "shroom out" with others, has faked ADHD to a psychiatrist to get script for adderall and xanax, has not filed tax returns for at least maybe 10 years, has bought over 200 whippits on amazon just for kicks and giggles (no pun intended) ... the list goes on. By the way, it's not all talk, I saw the whippits - like they were bragging to me whilst showing me how heavy the box was, I saw the rx of meds, the 'shroom out' part, she only described the experience to me, so I don't know...but still.
I just sit there in bewilderment cuz I don't know what to say. I know it sounds naive on my part, I am online way more than I should be, lol, and 'read' stuff, but in reality, nope.
I finally gain courage and start to break out of my anxious, fearful shell and this is what I come up with? Granted, this person has not killed or robbed a bank (not to my knowledge haha!) but is there not a decent person that is just umm...I don't know, average? Or is this normal amongst people these days? Am I THAT out of touch?
shrugs....
mg: