Falkor
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I think you're just way too harsh on yourself, you say your selfish, which is a self destructive pattern of thinking about yourself.
It's always about YOU. Is what you say, but in fact... You also care a lot about that girl you mentioned. You were afraid what she could think of you, and you always wanted to be there for her, Is what I can read.
I think you are a people pleaser since you always get the vulnerable one and they shouldn't use it. You have to be aware of this concept. I have the same, we have to toughen up and tell them to back off.
About the girl, she's just busy. She told you she would love to see you. So that says well enough. Don't ask for more, she's having a hard time, so now it's time to deal on your own stuff too. Some people just can, some people can't well, but if you learn to work on yourself, just yourself, you will not need any others to help you.
I know it is a hard world. I'm sorry. I wish people could all just be more like us. :: Like being vulnerable and want to be there for you. But it's the reality. It still is so weird, SA and HSP is so rough.
A big hug, for you!
It's always about YOU. Is what you say, but in fact... You also care a lot about that girl you mentioned. You were afraid what she could think of you, and you always wanted to be there for her, Is what I can read.
I think you are a people pleaser since you always get the vulnerable one and they shouldn't use it. You have to be aware of this concept. I have the same, we have to toughen up and tell them to back off.
About the girl, she's just busy. She told you she would love to see you. So that says well enough. Don't ask for more, she's having a hard time, so now it's time to deal on your own stuff too. Some people just can, some people can't well, but if you learn to work on yourself, just yourself, you will not need any others to help you.
I know it is a hard world. I'm sorry. I wish people could all just be more like us. :: Like being vulnerable and want to be there for you. But it's the reality. It still is so weird, SA and HSP is so rough.
A big hug, for you!