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Old 03-01-2009
 

This is why i feel dumb. I am going to make a list, make yours.
# I am always lost
# My mind can easily go blank
# I can walk but i don't even know what streets i am walking to
# I still don't even know the streets around my neighborhood
# I still haven't managed to fully take the train( I LIVE IN NYC)
# I can go take the train but when i know what train to takes and when somebody tells me the fully address and where to stop etc
# I still do not understand the traffic light, when is red...it means this or that etc.
# I am not normal like other people or at least i feel that way
# I never know what is new(new fashion, new cell phone, new movie etc)
# I feel like i live in a bubble
# I feel like i am never ever again getting another job
# I feel like i am never going to have sex because it hurts for the girl, the first time
# I can't manage to have a good conversation on the phone, i get bored and my mind is blank
# I stay on the computer the whole time and i want to go out
# When i do manage to go out, i want to come home back to my computer
# At times, i want to say smart things in class but i have to rehearse it like a million times and when i say it, I SOUND LIKE A PSYCHO.
# My mother and my sister always talk behind my back, and i feel like cussing them out but i keep it inside.
# I have no self esteem whatsoever, and i wish i was PERFECT
# I have to pee every second
# I am 17 and i feel like i am trapped in a 50 year's body and mind
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- I still don't know what the F6 button is for.
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When I open my mouth everyone around me is like what? What was that? say it again please... the situation ends with me getting a panic attack

Only ****s know what the f6 button is for so don't worry riiya, lol Iam sorry, I just find it funny
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Old 03-01-2009
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Let's see, there are a lot of reason why I AM, or feel dumb!!!

- I don't know how to read street signs

- I don't know how to read maps either

-One time I thought dry wall was frosting

-One time I also thought that glue was frosting

- I walk into the middle of the street without thinking sometimes

- I wear the same shirt for like a week

- I only shower like 1-3 times a week, 3 is VERY rare

- I've gotten a hair brush stuck in my hair about 3 times, and each time it
took about 1 1/2 hours to get out (it wasn't me who got it out)

- I still don't know what to say when someone says "what's up"

- I don't know what any of the stupid F keys do (except F5)

- I always read words wrong

- I can't pronounce a lot of things right

- I bite my lips when I'm nervous, but I peel a lot of layers off so they are always bleeding.

- Whenever I try to leave a message I just end up breathing into the phone

- I had to take the same math class THREE times

- I don't believe that I have the ability to think before I take actions

- My mind is always always blank, and I'm always zoned out

- I'm really clumsy and won't pay attention to what is around me. I've crashed into people and knocked them down before.

- I'm always like "what what what what what what" but I forgot why, because I forget everything

- Whenever a box says 'open here' I always end up ripping it open on the end

-I always chew gum and blow bubbles that pop allover my face, and sometimes my eyelashes

- I touch dry ice because I want to know how it 'feels' and I got a scar on my hand

- When someone says something to me all I do is like wave at them and look like an idiot, because I have no idea what to do.

- I ate a bag of catnip for 5 dollars

- I chew on my sweater and it has a bunch of holes in the sleeves

- I also chew on my hair a lot and then put it back

- I like to draw on my arms and put dots on them

- A few weeks ago I was eating ice cream in bed, but I didn't finish it, and I left the bowl on my bed. I fell asleep while I was sleeping it spilled everywhere and got everything really sticky. I was really lucky it didn't get in my hair.

- What makes me really dumb is that like a week later I was eating a lollipop in bed, and I fell asleep with it in my mouth, but this time it must have like melted or something? This time I got the dog all sticky.

-What makes me the stupidest person in the whole wide world is that like five days after that I was eating a yogurt in bed, and I fell asleep and it spilled everywhere. I just can't believe it took me sooo long to learn not to eat things in bed.

-I used to think that love was one of the seven deadly sins

OKAY. This list is getting too long. Please don't read it, it's too long, and a waste of your LOVELY time. There's probably a lot of other reasons why I am a moron but that's enough for now (:.
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When I open my mouth everyone around me is like what? What was that? say it again please... the situation ends with me getting a panic attack
That happens to me too, especially in loud places.
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Old 03-01-2009
 

Really, well to me it happens all the ****in time coz Iam not a native English speaker plus my anxiety in my stomach (that funny feeling) makes it a deadly combo... the first time someone says "what" it's over, the next time I repeat myself I sound like an alien from a different planet coz my anxiety kicks in..

I wished I could fall asleep that easy like you psych,

- no one can top that... once my car broke down in the middle of a busy street, what I as the social phobic did was get out of the car in an anxiety attack and run away. Horrible, everyone was lookin at me and laughing and I begged my parents to get my car later, got a fine for leaving the car there

- once I got pulled over by a cop coz I was speeding, I was anxious of course and couldn't say a word clearly, cop thought Iam hiding something, thought I have a fake drivers license and arrested me on suspicion of illegal imigration lol.. Humiliating
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It's very easy to fall asleep if you got your PILLS that knock you out, otherwise I can be awake forever. Don't worry I have to repeat myself a lot too. I don't care though. It's because I'm not understandable or I talk too fast or whatever.
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Old 03-01-2009
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# I can't manage to have a good conversation on the phone, i get bored and my mind is blank
# I stay on the computer the whole time and i want to go out
# When i do manage to go out, i want to come home back to my computer
# At times, i want to say smart things in class but i have to rehearse it like a million times and when i say it, I SOUND LIKE A PSYCHO.
That's how I perceive myself all the time, especially that about talking on the phone {which is a reason why I almost never call my parents}. In addition I've got this:

* I never buy any clothes myself, simply because I'm so avarice I don't want to spend money on such things. Hence the desire for clothes for Christmas and birthday presents.

* I've got the world's strangest taste in music and movies. I absolutely DREAD EVERYTHING THAT'S SAD, so that's why I dismiss movies even before I've seen them if I know they don't have a happy ending. Same thing with books, by the way.

* I get depressed and feel blue by certain surroundings like outland towns with old houses, cities with grey buildings and so on. Even distinctive dialects freak me out, that's another reason why I'm so selective on the people I hang out with.

* I am mentally retarded when it comes to maths, I've got to use thrice as long time as most people before I understand anything. Fortunately I'll {probably, according to my schedule} be done with that during this spring.

* I take great pleasure in conjugating verbs in other languages, reading and learning the grammatical composition, the language history and so on. And on learning all the world's capitals.

* I'd actually not get sad if one of the bullies {I was bullied for 11 years} had passed away, I wouldn't even have gone to the person's funeral, I'd rather feel relieved.

* When I get startled or baffled by something during a conversation I have to repeat myself all over again, often multiple times. Even if I slow down and make the statement word by word it still comes out in the wrong order or the pronunciation is rather lame.

* I've got NO social skills; I don't know any good jokes to make, cannot read subtle signs, don't know what to respond to others when they ask me how I am doing. Especially I get paralysed around girls.

* I am so shy that I even struggle with posting here on SPW.

There's surely a great amount of things I've left out, but I'm drained for things to say right now^^.
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Old 03-01-2009
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# I've never had a girlfriend and i'm still a virgin, and im almost 28 If i came home and there was a woman lying naked waiting for me i wouldn't have a clue what to do, i'd probably freeze and have a heart attack.

# I have no clue how to start o'r maintain conversation.
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Old 03-01-2009
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Absolutely! but not always, when im feeling happy and not worrying, relaxed i become alot more aware and witty, and over the period of about two years i was having a difficult time at university and at home with family i started to worry and obsess about these issues so much that i forgot how to think straight ...my anxiety meant i would forget conversations, i would read a page in a book and not remember a bloody thing about the content! =(

in class i couldnt learn because if you are a self conscious person you tend to focus on every single voice and sound travelling around you from left-to-right behind-infront of you and it becomes a cluster of noise that makes no sense, then the teacher would ramble on for hours and it became information-overload, meaning when the class finished you'd walk away with too much ramble and nothing condensed, so i had to write everything i could down on a notepad ...

it takes alot of training and positive thinking to practice better memory if you dont have a natural knack for remembering information, or it could be how you conceptualise what people say to you. they may have meant one thing but you took it as something different. ...

people also tend to process what people say into opposite ends, meaning either its black or white like that person just laughed ..."were they just laughing at me?", "what was so funny" as opposed to "something funny just happened"

lots of factors come into it ...
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When I open my mouth everyone around me is like what? What was that? say it again please... the situation ends with me getting a panic attack

Only ****s know what the f6 button is for so don't worry riiya, lol Iam sorry, I just find it funny
Same here! i'm fairly hit and miss, every so often im interesting but then i'll open my mouth and what i intended to say comes out as fodder or i'll stop mid sentence and start over ...

then you witness others who can rattle off coherent funnies like second nature all the time ...

the worst is when you really try and you get blank faces especially when its trying to make new friends who have a strong clique
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Old 03-01-2009
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hello jo1991, yes i feel dumb a lot of the time mainly because i cannot read very well, i think that I am dyslexic, the world confuses me a lot and also i am scared of people, but mainly a lot of my depression is rooted in the fact that i have as yet been unable to deal effectivly with my dyslexia and adhd and possible bi polar disorder.
I try to live in the moment and forget about my problems but it is really difficult.
I hope that you are well.
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Thanks apple. I forgot that too, sometimes i feel like i am dyslexic there are times that i put wrong on the wrong place or something.
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Old 05-02-2009
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yes, all of the time.
i'm dyslexic and have adhd, meaning i've never read a book in my life because i can't actually read, so basically my life has turned into a bit of an adventure to find things to occupy my mind.
but it all feels trite and strange because my mind just cannot process written information and i really wish i could read books.
that's the main source of a lot of my depression.
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Old 05-02-2009
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Sometimes when people talk I only remember a portion of what they said( like today) And I was embarassed because I had to go get a knife and I couldnt find it. And I cant concentrate very well in school. And pretty much some things you said, is the same for me.
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Old 05-02-2009
 

- can't read a map either
- have no sense of direction and never know where i am, yeh i dont know my own neighbourhood either. @_@
- can't drive even with the instructor giving me every little detailed instruction
- find it really tough to say hi back to people or smile
- don't know how to go about doing anything including the most simplest stuff
- afraid of appearing interested in others/giving the wrong impression if i try to be friendly so i'm generally very cold
- i have extremely low self esteem as well
- when i try to talk to my brother he hits me and i chicken out
- i don't know how to talk to my family at all
- i do[nt know how to ask people 'how are you?' back when they ask me lol
- havent bought any new clothes in yrs. cant remember the last time i bought myself a new piece of clothing.
- i have no fashion sense whatsoever
- my parents hate each-other, there's nothing i can do about it
- i spend all day on the internet
- i wait for people to message me on MSN and get upset when some ignore me or take ages to message me back
- even when i try i can't finish any tasks i start
- i'm not good at anything
- i surf the internet aimlessly
- i haven't hung out with friends for years
- go out once in 2 weeks only because i have to for my job centre appointments
- im anxiious to even let my parents know whenever i go out so i end up staying at home more often
- i feel most free when my parents aren't around me
- lately i can't feel depressed without feeling ____ at the same time.
- i had a crush on a guy at college just because he said hi to me occasionally and smiled
- im easily jealous
- i feel that even if i try, people will always not like me, nobody would hate or like me, because im just so insignificant... just so uninteresting...not worth the attention...
- i don't think i have any common sense lol
- i think i might have ADD, i can hardly concentrate or learn anything lately
- reading lots of text is hard work unless its an informal email that's personally sent to me
- i'm not really interested in anything
- have little to no opinions
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Old 05-03-2009
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Let's see, there are a lot of reason why I AM, or feel dumb!!!

- I walk into the middle of the street without thinking sometimes

- I still don't know what to say when someone says "what's up"

- I don't know what any of the stupid F keys do (except F5)

- I always read words wrong

- I can't pronounce a lot of things right

- My mind is always always blank, and I'm always zoned out


(:.

Those, we have in common. but I have to admit the bed ones were funny. I laughed at everyone. Not in a bad way though.

I share a room and when my sister is in there and im not, i always think she is going through my stuff.. and when my mom goes in there whether im in there or not, i always think she is being nosy
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Old 05-03-2009
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how i am dumb:

1) so.....much.....apathy
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Old 05-03-2009
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Reasons why I am dumb:

*All my classmates have graduated but I have to stay for another year to complete my studies.

*I'm almost 20 but have never had a girlfriend in real life.

*I take offense to harmless jokes because I think that people are trying to make me look stupid.

*Never had a close friend in my life.

*I've made less than 10 friends in real life.

*I can go a whole day without speaking a word when I'm outside.

*I have never bought my own food at home since my parents buy all my food or I eat instant noodles.

*I have never bought my own clothes.

*I wear only 2 pairs of clothing in the day, and 2 pairs of clothing at night. I've been wearing them for 10 years.

*All my home clothes have lots of little holes in them.

*Sometimes when I'm depressed I like to look at even more depressing things, but at other times when I'm depressed, I like to look at beautiful things.

*I go from very happy at one moment to very sad the next.

*I wake up crying sometimes.

*When I talk to people my mind goes blank but my mouth continues moving, and after that I realise I said something stupid.

*I can't understand many street signs.

*I never comb or blow-dry my hair.

*I don't know how to style my hair and have never bothered to try.

*As my physical body grows older, my mind grows younger.
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- I don't know what any of the stupid F keys do (except F5)

Woah! I know F11 makes webpages fullscreen, what do the other buttons do????
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