robertB

For years and years I was constantly bullied at school by someone who made my school life a living hell. Now almost 2 years after that I was graduated from highschool I still have a lot of anger inside me and a strong desire of revenge. I'm now in college but learning doesn't go well, I can't forget the injustice and sexual abuse. No one is supporting me, everybody know and saw it but nobody helped me.
Now after the bullying I feel a lot of anger and revenge, do you recognize this feelings?

lacrotix

I can totally relate. Though I haven't graduated yet, I still have that instinct to teach these thugs what they deserve. It feels normal to devastate somebody because they devastated you, but this is a dark road to take in which a vicious cycle of destruction follows. That is why you must find a way to safely get rid of this anger without hurting others. It may get messy, after all. May I suggest playing a first person shooter online in the beginners room? (I always loved shooting unskilled people there )

People are selfish in nature. People don't want to get our hands dirty or in a mess if it doesn't directly concern them. I had those kind of situations, but not as severe, several times before. People harass you and the bystanders watch but look away when you glance for help. There's nothing for us to do except to get them directly involved, like running into them when an angry wrestler is right behind us.


I wish you the best of luck

mimi1988

Sexual abuse? By whom?... Anyway, I was never teased or bullied to the extent that you were. I've had my share of bullies. But the one thing I NEVER tolerated was people putting their hands on me. I remember when I was in 5th grade this one girl kept on picking with me. One day she called her self trying to push me. (wrong chic!) I socked that b**** right in her face! lol. Unfortunately, I scraped my leg against this big concrete block while we were fighting and ended up with a permanent scar on my left leg. I hated wearing shorts for a long time because of that scar. We ended up going to the same high school 9th grade year. I wouldn't say we became friends, but we sometimes conversated. I don't know; I think I'm too forgiving?

Flowers-Of-Bloom

When I was bullied, I was in a much worse condition than I am now. I'm a lot stronger than I was. I know now, that I didn't deserve what they did to me.

Now looking back two or three years, I hate these people that bullied me. And I mean I hate them. I want them to die (no I'm not kidding you). They're just so pathetic.
Revenge is nice. But I'll never get it.

Your face still colours my mind.
Vanity of vanities - all is vanity and grasping for the wind ~ Ecclesiastes 1

Apple Strudel

^I'll feel better if one them dies too. At least one. I think I would be release a tad bit.

robin_hood

Hi! Very recognizable, I was bullied (psysically and verbally) a lot in high school. Now more than 15 years later I'm still angry at them. I always hope by now they'd have been run over by a train.

I hate being around younger people, they remind me of the bullies and I feel they can't be trusted (no offence to young people!). I've also always hated the teachers for not seeing or doing anything!

I also have depressive moods, like flakybark said I too think its related to the anger.

Good luck to all and hang on!!

mndigi

I don't want to take revenge now on the kids that mocked me when I was small. But I wish I had dealt with them back when they mocked me. I sometimes imagine in my head what I could have done, and I kick and box in the air imagining (lol). This often happens when I see a kid being bullied on TV or read about it in a novel. But I believe in all honesty that those kids from my childhood needed to be shown some serious consequences to their misbehaviour.

LycraPantiies92

Exactly.
I do have a lot of anger. It always seemed that my bullies were the ones that were dealt with lightly, no-one did ever understand how much i suffered, sometimes in class i literally could not speak. So i don't know how it's fair that some people can bully me and get away with it, someone should have taken it seriously. I had a hard time even convincing my school that it was genuine, despite taking my 'evidence diary' thing to my teachers they still said they'd deal with the incidents but didn't. And my mum brought it up millions of times with the school but they did nothing. I should have taken it a lot further, wrote to thi headteacher or someone high up. But it was so embarrasing to have to mention that people were still doing it..and i also felt like i deservd evry bit of it since i was still not getting over the sa. I was at my teachers office every week while i was still attending. Yet they decided to basically chuck me out of the school and not be allowed back when it was me who was getting bullied constantly.
The other kids ruined it for me. I was always shyer and had less confidence because they wouldn't stop being lil idiots.

And all i really ever wanted was to do well.

Iranianguy

i got bullied quite a lot at high school,no one ever literally tried to hurt me but it was bullying in another way a bit difficult to explain,sometimes a way you cant tell the person of.I think bullying like this has definately not helped my form of social anxiety in anyway

IranianGuy

mndigi

Yes, schools don't seem to take bullying seriously. Whereas social-phobics like us would attest to how destructive it can be. It's similar to being physically maimed. But I think in the future schools would pay more attention to it because more and more people are realizing its seriousness. As for the bullies who bullied us, I believe the bully parts of their personalities never go away completely even when they grow up, and they indulge in high-risk behaviour. So one day, this high-risk bit bites them hard. As you sow, so shall you reap.