Don't know if this is right

GeminiLoner

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I don't know exactly where I am supposed to write things. I don't belong anywhere on these forums, but this seems to fit more than the others I guess.

I have a condition known as BDD, but I also believe I have Avoidant too. Most people think I have SA and Agoraphobia, but I don't.

People with SA still try or can still do some things in life, but I cant. It's been so long now that I don't think I could ever function in the real world again.

I've been alone and housebound for almost over 10 years, with the exception of family members I live with. My friends left me 3 weeks after I became like this, which is funny considering one of my friends was slowly becoming Agoraphobic and I used to go to her house everyday to help her leave the house.

Everything in life scares me, not just my illness, but after.

If I was ever to get over this, how would you explain?

If I got a job interview, how do I explain why I have never worked?
If I got friends, how do I explain why I don't have any now?
If I got a boyfriend, how do I explain why I've never had one?

They'd all run as far as they can, away from me. Maybe it's better to stay isolated.

I've been thinking that suicide is the best way. My best years have passed me by (I'm 29 by the way).

I apologize if this is in the wrong section, I don't know where to post this.
 

ScaredToBreathe

Well-known member
You are posting in the right section :)
29 isn't that old, you still have much of your life ahead of you! And that means lots of time for things to change and to feel better.
Have you gone to a therapist or doctor? They might be able to recommend something to help you get over your agoraphobia. If it makes you more comfortable ask a family member to bring you so you are with someone when you go out.

Or maybe try taking small steps at a time if your agoraphobia is so severe: go out to get the mail in the morning, walk down the street for 5 minutes then back, and gradual steps to get out more. Then maybe ask a family member for a ride to the store to pick something up or anywhere you think you can handle going for a few minutes.

Don't be afraid to bring up any other issues or problems you are dealing with; the SPW community is here to help, and many of us can relate to how difficult this is for you. If you need understanding people to talk to, this is the right place.

You've got potential to improve your conditions and get back to living without anything holding you back. It may seem hopeless now, but just be strong and pull through. I hope you can eventually conquer your agoraphobia and do the things you want without setbacks. It takes time; just stick it out.
 
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