GeminiLoner
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I don't know exactly where I am supposed to write things. I don't belong anywhere on these forums, but this seems to fit more than the others I guess.
I have a condition known as BDD, but I also believe I have Avoidant too. Most people think I have SA and Agoraphobia, but I don't.
People with SA still try or can still do some things in life, but I cant. It's been so long now that I don't think I could ever function in the real world again.
I've been alone and housebound for almost over 10 years, with the exception of family members I live with. My friends left me 3 weeks after I became like this, which is funny considering one of my friends was slowly becoming Agoraphobic and I used to go to her house everyday to help her leave the house.
Everything in life scares me, not just my illness, but after.
If I was ever to get over this, how would you explain?
If I got a job interview, how do I explain why I have never worked?
If I got friends, how do I explain why I don't have any now?
If I got a boyfriend, how do I explain why I've never had one?
They'd all run as far as they can, away from me. Maybe it's better to stay isolated.
I've been thinking that suicide is the best way. My best years have passed me by (I'm 29 by the way).
I apologize if this is in the wrong section, I don't know where to post this.
I have a condition known as BDD, but I also believe I have Avoidant too. Most people think I have SA and Agoraphobia, but I don't.
People with SA still try or can still do some things in life, but I cant. It's been so long now that I don't think I could ever function in the real world again.
I've been alone and housebound for almost over 10 years, with the exception of family members I live with. My friends left me 3 weeks after I became like this, which is funny considering one of my friends was slowly becoming Agoraphobic and I used to go to her house everyday to help her leave the house.
Everything in life scares me, not just my illness, but after.
If I was ever to get over this, how would you explain?
If I got a job interview, how do I explain why I have never worked?
If I got friends, how do I explain why I don't have any now?
If I got a boyfriend, how do I explain why I've never had one?
They'd all run as far as they can, away from me. Maybe it's better to stay isolated.
I've been thinking that suicide is the best way. My best years have passed me by (I'm 29 by the way).
I apologize if this is in the wrong section, I don't know where to post this.