cait07
New member
hi..i just feel a need to vent and im having alot of problems in school and with people in general. ive just recently started going back to school after being out of school for about 3 years and i was bascially going no where in my life. ive never had many friends...as i have always been so scared of rejection and an intense fear of being a failure to people that i always put a wall up when i meet people at it usually takes me at least a year or two to be completely comfortable around someone. even then, i hold back all the time and im extremely unasstertive..i never say anything i want to or am feeling and i dont know how to say no to someone because i think its going to make them dislike me or think about me differently. im always putting other people ahead of myself and i long for a friendship where i do not have to do this and can just be myself with a person without putting up a wall. in school, i have a few aquaitences but lately ive been getting to know one woman in particular and she seems like a geuinely nice person but i am so uncomfortable around her because she is basically the opposite of me..she speaks her mind, is loud..and at times too aggressive in social situations. this overwhelms me incredibly, and i freeze up at times and dont know what to say or do and i wont speak up to her because of how overpowering her personality is to me. i dont know if anyone is going to read this, but if someone does i would just like to know what i can do about this so i can feel a bit better around people. i was thinking maybe i should see a counseller but i dont know if i can talk to someone that openly. but if someone reads, thank you..and ANY comments are much appreciated.