Livingwithoutlivin

I really hate that I am like this, I really wish this was not a problem at all, I wish I didn't have to even start thinking about getting nervous when I go to the mall and pay for something, I make others nervous too.


I went to Express and got some pants, and then I was looking at a shirt, and some lady came and asked me if I needed help, and she seemed a tad aggressive, so I didn't like that because it makes me feel like she thinks I'm going to steal something, maybe cause I'm dressed down. Then I go to the cashier and pay for my stuff, and I'm thinking I'm doing OK and don't look to anxious, but then the cashier curls in her lips, and I think it's to cover some anxiety I might be projecting on to her, but man, anyway, I try my best to smile after I'm done paying with credit card.


Then I go to Macy's and buy a sweater and my anxiety was really bad there, I always feel like people are staring at me and judging me and they probably think I look like a slob, then when I went to the fitting rooms, I felt very uncomfortable while the lady was checking how many items I was bringing in, and then after trying the clothes and coming out of the fitting stall, I go to her and give her what I dont' want, and she has like a frown on her face, even though I tried to smile, and told myself I would look normal and cheerful- when I give her my clothes- so that confused me. Then when I was standing in line to pay for my clothes I was so fricking anxious to hurry up and get out of there, and then the cashiers were looking at me and I was curling my lips to cover the discomfort and then I finally got to the cashier, and she was pretty good at just smiling and not letting my discomfort get to her, and I appreciated and admired that she didn't succumb to my anxiety as others do. I smiled at her as genuinely as I could and left the mall, but on my way to the library, I just kept wishing I didn't have this problem, I did have it at the mall too. I feel that the worst thing I can do is keep trying to hide from society. I think that only makes it worse, and harder to bear the outside world, the next time I go out. I must keep expriencing until I find real problems, and realize how much it matters to keep up an image of normalcy with others, because I need others as alliances to make it through this life.

Anyway, guys I'm thinking about joining the National Guard to get some money for school, and toughen up, and just get a drastic life experience.

After my hour here is over, I am going go go buy myself a nice tuna subway and practice not being anxious, though I will tell you guys that ordering my sandwich at Subway is the worst thing in the world for me, I always make the servers so uncomfortable with my anxiety. I hope you guys have stories that will cheer me up- tell me if you have any experiences like this at the stores or restaurants. PLEASE it's the only thing that makes me feel better.[/i]

nico82

That happens to me all of the time which is why I a rarely go shopping unless I have to (which sucks as I *do* like shopping). Although what happens me with is that I slowly start sweating on my forehead which I'm sure is very noticeable so I tend to go in and get out as quickly as I can.

"Sentence fragment is also a sentence fragment!"

Sad-Kitten

I always hated shopping. I try to buy as much stuff online as i can now, but since i'm trying to get my life back, i know i'm going to have to face these things in the near future.

IceLad

I remember buying two pairs of jeans from a particular store last year.

As is customary with me, I had difficulty deciding upon the size and type of jeans. As a result, I ended up going back to the changing rooms three times.

By the third time I had significant facial sweating, and was extremely self conscious and anxious that the staff were thinking that I was up to something dodgy.

bitingthepea

do you feel as anxious if you are with a friend..
because i get awful anxiety thoughts and fears when im on my own but if im with a friend for some reason they dont even eneter my mind
Id love to have a calm shopping spree on my own for once

Klaus

Are this normal attendants so weak that they can have mood swings with every person that enters at the ****ing store?
Cmon...
Let's put some robots as cashiers because humans cashiers have bipolar disorder because of customers' mood .

The whole world is crazy.

Example: The whole world is burning their streets because gaza and israel streets are being burned and they want to show compassion.

stardog

Offtopic but,

no people want the state of Israel to stop killing Palestinians. People have a right to be angry about it,,

Klaus

But it's ok to the world to palestinians launch rockets at Israel.
I give up to try to understand common sense.

stardog

Look at the history my friend, Palestinians have a lot to be angry about right now. This 'war' by Israel will just create more anger in the region and create more violence against Israel in the long-run.

0NEDAYWATCH

I don't know what happened to me recently as far as I can remember I've always been the nervous/shy type but it was up until i started smoking weed and doing other drugs i shouldn't have been doing that I noticed that my anxiety almost doubled after stopping using drugs. I have abused weed heavily for the past 2 years & I mean heaviley. I smoke everyday sometimes for hours straight. Well last year I had to stop because I had received probation for 6 months and thats when I started sweating from my forehead like crazy for any little thing that made me feel uncomfortable. No one believed that something was wrong with me. They all thought it was some sort of joke or something. No one felt my pain. I mean its just sweating its not the end of your life right? WRONG! It's really ruining my life! I really need a job too and I feel almost like disabled by this. Its taking over my life! I had also seen a psychiatrist who prescribed me seroquel for a couple of months during my 6 month period of probation but as the dosage went higher, my throat would swell up from the seroquel and i wouldn't be able to eat. I would choke on my food and even when i was drinking things. So I cut that off. She also prescribed paxil in a 25mg but it wasn't even doing anything to me. I felt the same. Well anyways sorry for my sad sob story I just thank god that I'm not the only one in this dilemma =(. :oops: