flyinghome
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Right now I'm having extreme intrusive thoughts about little kids. Thoughts about raping or touching little kids. And I'm getting a little groinal response.
This is what is happening specifically: I automatically, without even thinking, say to myself "I wonder if I'll get aroused if so and so happens to a little kid". Then I imagine something happening to a little kid. Then I feel immense guilt and shame.
I asked a question about this topic on Experience Project, and everyone tells me to turn myself in to the police. So I'm really doubting myself right now. Am I pedophile?
Someone on EP even said something like "I know washing hands is a ritual for OCD, but I didn't know raping little kids is as well." Which begs the question, am I having OCD thoughts, or are these thoughts actually desires that I don't know I want?
My next CBT session is on July 15. How can I make things easy until then?
Any help is appreciated.
This is what is happening specifically: I automatically, without even thinking, say to myself "I wonder if I'll get aroused if so and so happens to a little kid". Then I imagine something happening to a little kid. Then I feel immense guilt and shame.
I asked a question about this topic on Experience Project, and everyone tells me to turn myself in to the police. So I'm really doubting myself right now. Am I pedophile?
Someone on EP even said something like "I know washing hands is a ritual for OCD, but I didn't know raping little kids is as well." Which begs the question, am I having OCD thoughts, or are these thoughts actually desires that I don't know I want?
My next CBT session is on July 15. How can I make things easy until then?
Any help is appreciated.