Falling into depression at the worst time

These past few years I've always dealt with my anxiety on my own and was able to hold it all together. But something traumatic has happened to me and I feel numb all the time. When I do feel emotion, it is just an intense sadness and I am not only feeling mentally unstable but physically too. I've completely lost my appetite since my 'panic attack' (not sure if it was or not) and can only force 1 whole meal a day. I'm already skinny and underweight to begin with but was due to genetics. I'm scared and I feel so alone, I have no one to talk to. My mind is cluttered with thoughts of who I can let it all out to but I just can't turn to anybody. Not only this, my anxiety also makes exam stress x10 harder for me and I have my exams in ~6 weeks. So adding the trauma of what happened and exam stress has left me like this. I have zero interest in anything but blogging and even then it feels stale. I can't focus on studying at all and the longest I can hold my attention on it is 20 ish minutes. I'm so worried but I don't know how to seek help, I'm scared of social interaction and I have health anxiety too so I just don't know how to go to the doctors. I'm not really asking for advice here I just want somebody to tell me they have or are going through the same thing. Thanks.

I am so sorry you're feeling that way :sad:

I've dealt with depression a lot, but I can't say I've been through any trauma like what you're talking about, so I'm afraid I can't really help you. But at least you can find some support here.

However, I think you should try to put all the energy that you can gather in trying to concentrate on your studies for the next 6 weeks. It seems like the most relevant thing that you can do right now. 20 minutes of attention span is not much, but it's still something: You can try to study 20 mins, go for a walk, study 20 mins, try to eat something (healthy), study 20 mins, etc...

Something that you can also do that might help your global situation is to meditate, do some yoga and listen to soothing music in order to focalize on putting your mind at peace and letting go of things. I sound like a new age hippie but seriously you need to focalize on that.

Edit: Running also bring peace of mind in a miraculous way.

Pacific_Loner said:

I am so sorry you're feeling that way :sad:

I've dealt with depression a lot, but I can't say I've been through any trauma like what you're talking about, so I'm afraid I can't really help you. But at least you can find some support here.

However, I think you should try to put all the energy that you can gather in trying to concentrate on your studies for the next 6 weeks. It seems like the most relevant thing that you can do right now. 20 minutes of attention span is not much, but it's still something: You can try to study 20 mins, go for a walk, study 20 mins, try to eat something (healthy), study 20 mins, etc...

Something that you can also do that might help your global situation is to meditate, do some yoga and listen to soothing music in order to focalize on putting your mind at peace and letting go of things. I sound like a new age hippie but seriously you need to focalize on that.

Edit: Running also bring peace of mind in a miraculous way.

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Thank you for your comment. I thought 20 mins was nothing so I've been putting off my studies for a while. I will try what you said.

I agree, yoga has done wonders for me (it doesn't have to be the really athletic kind, it brings you peace from the deep breathing and it helps to release memories trapped in the muscle tissue. If you had a traumatic experience, it could help you release it.)
I will also mention that depression is sign that something is off with our body. It could be the bacteria in your gut, a low vitamin or mineral (try Vitamin D3, Magnesium, and B12) or your thyroid could be off. Listen to your body and investigate. Has your diet been bad recently? Are you not exercising as much as usual? The trauma you mention it's self could be the cause. Maybe you would be best to talk to a therapist?
I sure hope you feel better. I am always willing to listen and offer a cyber shoulder to cry on!

Lavinialuna said:

I agree, yoga has done wonders for me (it doesn't have to be the really athletic kind, it brings you peace from the deep breathing and it helps to release memories trapped in the muscle tissue. If you had a traumatic experience, it could help you release it.)
I will also mention that depression is sign that something is off with our body. It could be the bacteria in your gut, a low vitamin or mineral (try Vitamin D3, Magnesium, and B12) or your thyroid could be off. Listen to your body and investigate. Has your diet been bad recently? Are you not exercising as much as usual? The trauma you mention it's self could be the cause. Maybe you would be best to talk to a therapist?
I sure hope you feel better. I am always willing to listen and offer a cyber shoulder to cry on!

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I'm not really the athletic type but yoga does sound quite relaxing. My mum has an under active thyroid but I've already been tested for it and it's all good. As for my diet, my appetite has been quite low and because I'm a picky eater I don't eat enough vegetables/fruits so that could also have an effect on my health. I am trying to get the courage to go to the doctors but my anxiety makes it difficult to even set up an appointment :/ But thank you so much for your kind words I appreciate it, I may accept the cyber shoulder to cry on haha

Luka said:

I'm not really the athletic type but yoga does sound quite relaxing. My mum has an under active thyroid but I've already been tested for it and it's all good. As for my diet, my appetite has been quite low and because I'm a picky eater I don't eat enough vegetables/fruits so that could also have an effect on my health. I am trying to get the courage to go to the doctors but my anxiety makes it difficult to even set up an appointment :/ But thank you so much for your kind words I appreciate it, I may accept the cyber shoulder to cry on haha

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redeemable anytime