fear of fear, association and being judged

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anyone have this? I would be ok with my fear in the past but now that I learned that fears can really be detrimental I began to fear fear, and all negativity which can be seen as 'negative'. I don't know how to explain but that's how it is. I know.. one doesn't necessarily have to see a thing as negative or positive. Some think that one must always be 'positive' as if it means to just feel good, but positivity to me is more than just feeling good, it's about actually having something which will lead towards the succession of a goal. That's true posit-ivity. Negativity is the opposite. Not mere "happiness" or "sadness". People can judge you for looking "mad" or whatever and say you are being "negative" and it can get really annoying. It makes them seem snobbish. Don't they ever think that maybe I am that way for a reason, and no maybe I don't want to suffer even though it may seem that way? It's like, people don't want to help anyone they just want to abandon any and all who are going through tough times simply because it is "negative" or something. I can understand that maybe they don't have time for me but if they do then what, are they just going by what other people say? Whatever is deemed "popular" by a "majority"?

I realized that once I learned about how my thoughts really do contribute to my reality in a big way I began to fear all the uncertainties. Another thing which didn't help and made me feel like I was in a roller coaster was, to identify with my 'current self', and feel ok about it, in the midst of real physical pain and suffering as well (which may mess with your head and your emotions). And of course the sleeping problem. To continue... I had a hard time with the question of how to not identify with ongoing "negativity" in my life to get past it. Only thing I would do is to just not judge, and treat life like it's more than what I think. Although feeling "good" may or may not be needed, relaxation and being open to new things at the right times might be. If you can't relax though then what gives?
 
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