feeling like i'm nothing

I've really tried to fix things but when i try and feel good about myself i get knocked down. Maybe it's the people here where i live but they make me feel like they hate me. I get so many bad looks for no reason and i feel like i'm nothing. I try to ignore it but when its a lot of people doing it i feel like it has to be a problem with me. I sit and think about how i will never find a boyfriend no guys near me find me attractive they actually seem like they hate me. I've been rejected in the past and i just feel like where i live i'll never be good enough and it's a gross feeling. I did find a therapist though i'm hoping i start soon it's not right to live this way. I always feel better to hear from other who understand what this is like

Hello noonecares86,

Can you be more specific about that, are people doing this on the street? Do they abruptly change their facial expressions as soon as they come across you?

You know, I've recently moved to France, and the first thing I noticed is that when unaccompanied people walk towards someone, they tend to look down, or look at me then stare away, especially at night. I could think there is something wrong with me.
Thankfully, it's generally not the case, they're just shy.

I've dealt with people giving me bad looks too, especially with ones that don't look so modest, who think they are better than everyone else. Turns out, it's just them having superiority complex.

A charming woman with an innocent look on her face and a modest smile, that's the impression that your picture gives me. People in your town must be devils or something...

I've been rejected by three girls in my teenage hood, this made me stronger in a way, I am not as sentimental and shy in front of girls as I used to be, I accept myself as I am, I know that I am not good looking and I don't care because my life doesn't revolve around love anymore, these are just emotions after all.

Good luck noonecares86!

EDIT : This is for you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cx_8lfwVT-w

noonecares86 said:

I've really tried to fix things but when i try and feel good about myself i get knocked down. Maybe it's the people here where i live but they make me feel like they hate me. I get so many bad looks for no reason and i feel like i'm nothing. I try to ignore it but when its a lot of people doing it i feel like it has to be a problem with me. I sit and think about how i will never find a boyfriend no guys near me find me attractive they actually seem like they hate me. I've been rejected in the past and i just feel like where i live i'll never be good enough and it's a gross feeling. I did find a therapist though i'm hoping i start soon it's not right to live this way. I always feel better to hear from other who understand what this is like

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I'm glad to hear you are going to see a therapist. I hope it helps. I wish you all the best.:thumbup:

hope you will recover soon after see the therapist

Yeah, I can relate. I try to think that's its my own mind that's playing tricks on me. Usually that helps, although not all the time.

There are places Ive lived where almost everyone was unfriendly to me. Other places where they were mostly friendly and other places a mixture, so I think it does depend where you live for one thing.
Another thing is sometimes (often?!) I am in a depressed frame of mind and when I go out in that mood I do not smile at people and I even sometimes walk past people I know without stopping to speak or even saying 'hi' (thats bad I know). I recently realised when people walk passed me without speaking it is likely not because they don't like me, but just that they are having a bad day/week/year.
I can recommend therapy, it can take a while to have an effect but the journey itself is interesting, even enjoyable! I wish I could go do some more but circumstances don't permit.

Some people are just unfriendly. Theres this old guy that drives the shuttle around my campus. And every time I get on hes scowling at me. Hes left me behind if I show up too late but Ive seen him stop to pick up the girls. When ladies step off the shuttle they'll say thank you and he replies to them. When I say thank you, I just get silence. Not sure what his deal is, but the way I see it is that if someone has made a judgement about me or anyone and we've not knowingly done them wrong, then thats their problem. Dont let them infect you with that animosity.

Usually if you feel like people hate you, it's actually just them picking up your fearful/anxious/uneasy/stressed/etc vibe & them reacting badly to it.