I think it is time to stop posting in this thread for me.
I have finally managed to subdue the beast. I am by no means finally cured, and I am still working on myself, and will probably have to until the day I die.
Most, if not all, of the links and websites that helped me in this journey is posted in this thread, so if you want to know what I did, have a look. I will during the coming weeks go through it, delete dud links and so on.
I will still be lurking around the forums, I've been a member here since 2008, most of the people I know online are on here, and I love you all. (Some more than others of course.)
To sum up a little.
I am now 44 years old.
In the past two years I have lost 45 kg / 99 lbs, started a love/hate relationship with fitness, but are learning to like it a little more, with a final and reachable goal of having a six-pack.
I still have social anxiety, but I am working on this, and have improved immensely over the last few months, and can really see hope in the future that I will defeat that. I will always be an introvert, and I have learned to prefer that.
The family still drives me crazy.
And I am still poor.
The two most important things to remember:
Words have power. Learn to control the words you use, write a journal, be nice to yourself. My turning point was the day I called myself an idiot, and immediately responded and said: "Do not talk to yourself like that, it is not right."
The things you do every day matters more than the things you do one in a while. 15 minutes walking every day is better than a gym session once a week. And if that feels too much, do even less. One push-up a day is better than none.
Remember that all of this is not a race, but a journey. There will be ups and there will be downs, but eventually the downs will not be so bad, and the ups will reach heights that were unimaginable before.