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Ellla

Member
hi guys im new here but fee i can realy relate to you all. what a nice way to communicate ur true feelings with people that probably really understand me.

At least i dont feel alone. there are days I fall so low I drive myself crazy thinking how im going to get myself up.

then its a yo yo affect of ups and down but sometimes I am tired of pulling myself up so just decide to fall lower. thats when i dont want to go out but stay home alone and dont want to see anyone for fear of judgement..

sometimes it so safe to hide that i just want to do it for the rest of my life yet dont know where to escape to

hate societies pressures
 
ciel20

ciel20

Well-known member
I just received some very upsetting news, yet strangely I feel calm - not how I usually react. Hopefully I've just skipped past anger, depression etc. to acceptance..
 
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bony666

Well-known member
desperately in need for affection. Tired of always ending up lonely and sad. It's like someone has put a spell on me or some evil deamoniac force of loneliness is pursuing me all over my life...
 
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Natey1112

Active member
very nervous, and scared, having a severe spike in intrusive thoughts.... anyone wanna talk? use the talk thing

someone with OCD, so we can relate, it always seems to help
 
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Fliken

Member
Scared. Tired of doing absolutely nothing with my life. I find myself wanting to do a million things but in the end i cannot accomplish a single one of them and it's all because of this damn SF...
 
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Exposure

Well-known member
Im feeling much better than i did last night , things got really tough for me last night , usually i cant cry , i think its a defence mechanism but last night it all came out , alot of suicidal ideation , insomnia has really been killing me for the past few weeks but im trying to hang on , i recently gave up drinking because my life was complete misery with all the bad things that come with me drinking and when im not sleeping my anxiety goes through the roof and i cant leave my house and i smoke and my dad thinks im just being lazy and wouldnt get me any and everything was just going wrong and then my mam was nearly crying because my dad and i were arguing again and its christmas and the guilt was killing me , thought i was going to have a nervous breakdown , got a few hours sleep so im a bit better , its 8.15 now , im in dublin , ireland , just listening to bloc party , happy christmas eve everyone , it really helps to get all this of my chest , im thinking i might start writing a journal , just have to think of a hiding place for it (imagine if someone finds it , lol ) :eek:
 
Lea

Lea

Banned
I am crying. I don't want this ****ing life and ****ing destiny anymore. What have I done to deserve this, why was I born like crippled idiot without possibility to change? I have enough of living like homeless beggar spending my "life" in dark cellars without any close people like all others. I see this life should be a punishment for something (can't explain it otherwise), but why don't I even have the right to know what it is??
 
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