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Kind of nervous. Must introduce myself to class on a discussion board. A few years back when I was taking on-campus classes, the first day I was really nervous - teacher made us stand up and introduce ourselves. I couldn't find anything interesting to say about myself. I suck at introductions.
This does suck. I hope you find friends or family you can live with.
Get well soon.
i feel realy bad
i just got the information that the guy i am roommate with is thinking of moving and if he does i will not have anywhare to live
there is a significant risk that I will be homeless. this realy sucks!:kickingmyself:
This does suck. I hope you find friends or family you can live with.
Get well soon.
Earthcircle
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I feel very bad. Today, I turn 48 and hardly have any friends or anything else either. I seem to make people uncomfortable, so people want nothing to do with me. When will this stop?
razzle dazzle rose
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However! Best not to think of everything that can go wrong, and instead focus on everything that can go right: kissing, snuggling, hanging out with my friend, good food, good drive there and back, and so on. I'm already looking forward to it.
Too awesome! I understand the nerves, but these are the good kind of nerves. Live in the moment and all that good stuff. So exciting! :thumbup:
razzle dazzle rose
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There are many lonely people. We all have to reach out to each other, then maybe we wouldn't be so lonely anymore. But that is so hard to do! :kickingmyself:
razzle dazzle rose
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I am feeling rather strange.
Went to one of my favorite bakeries (ooh, delicious macaroons!), but this girl I used to know works there now. AHHHH. Running into people I haven't seen in a long time is the worst. I was planning on staying and enjoying my treats there, and any normal person would have done that, but I got it to go. Feel so ashamed :idontknow: I need to prepare for these types of encounters. They don't happen often, but I hate being caught off guard.
Went to one of my favorite bakeries (ooh, delicious macaroons!), but this girl I used to know works there now. AHHHH. Running into people I haven't seen in a long time is the worst. I was planning on staying and enjoying my treats there, and any normal person would have done that, but I got it to go. Feel so ashamed :idontknow: I need to prepare for these types of encounters. They don't happen often, but I hate being caught off guard.
Ah I'm very sorry to hear that. I hope things will get better for you. Happy Birthday anyway I hope the day turns around and this year will be the great year you've been waiting for.
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Let us know how it turns out. Hopefully it won't come to you having to find somewhere else to liveFeel good! And scared! I've decided to go back to Melbourne for a couple of extra days and spend more time with my lady friend down there. I figured that I have a week of holidays left, and I'll probably just waste them here doing nothing, so why not go back and kiss her some more, right?
I'm scared because 1. This is rather impromptu and not something I do well with, 2. I hope I'm welcomed back (they said I would be, but still...), and 3. What if she decides to get serious and want to have sex? My anxieties are likely to end that pretty fast.
However! Best not to think of everything that can go wrong, and instead focus on everything that can go right: kissing, snuggling, hanging out with my friend, good food, good drive there and back, and so on. I'm already looking forward to it.
Ah Mikey, I'm very glad to hear you happy :applause: this makes me very happy. I know things will go great and don't worry about a thing, focus on all the good stuff like you said above, you'll have an absolute blast! I can't wait to hear all about it!!!! When are you going? will we have to wait a whole week to get updates?
Phoenixx
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Seems like a lot of us here aren't exactly up to par today with good feelings.
For once today I finally feel good. All day I've been a miserable mess. I've been physically drained and tired all week, but today I was unmotivated and really depressed all day up until now. Slept in until 11am (I never sleep in that late) just because I had no motivation or willpower to even crawl out of bed. All day I've been forcing myself to do things, even when I didn't feel like it, but I'm glad I did because it did make me feel better. I really hate feeling like this with every period though. It's not just general PMS anymore, I know it isn't, and now I'm kicking myself for not contacting my doctor about it today. My mom talked to me again last night about how messed up I get around this time. Well, she didn't put it like that, but she does know now how emotionally miserable I get around this time. If I'm not yelling at people, I'm either bawling my eyes out over stupid things (The other day I cried because I screwed up making brownies. No I'm not kidding.) or I'm laying around emotionally dead to the world. She figured I should e-mail my doctor about any medications/natural remedies (I'd prefer natural remedies since medication and I haven't always gotten along) that I could take that would just help even everything out.
I did manage to reschedule my road test today. I was going to take it this Wednesday, but life happened and now my parents and I are busy as hell. I haven't had any more practice plus I have no one to take me to the test. I rescheduled for the beginning of February. I should definitely be going to that one. I also managed to finally order half of my textbooks today. I'll order the other half tomorrow and then hopefully this weekend I can buy the rest of my supplies.
For once today I finally feel good. All day I've been a miserable mess. I've been physically drained and tired all week, but today I was unmotivated and really depressed all day up until now. Slept in until 11am (I never sleep in that late) just because I had no motivation or willpower to even crawl out of bed. All day I've been forcing myself to do things, even when I didn't feel like it, but I'm glad I did because it did make me feel better. I really hate feeling like this with every period though. It's not just general PMS anymore, I know it isn't, and now I'm kicking myself for not contacting my doctor about it today. My mom talked to me again last night about how messed up I get around this time. Well, she didn't put it like that, but she does know now how emotionally miserable I get around this time. If I'm not yelling at people, I'm either bawling my eyes out over stupid things (The other day I cried because I screwed up making brownies. No I'm not kidding.) or I'm laying around emotionally dead to the world. She figured I should e-mail my doctor about any medications/natural remedies (I'd prefer natural remedies since medication and I haven't always gotten along) that I could take that would just help even everything out.
I did manage to reschedule my road test today. I was going to take it this Wednesday, but life happened and now my parents and I are busy as hell. I haven't had any more practice plus I have no one to take me to the test. I rescheduled for the beginning of February. I should definitely be going to that one. I also managed to finally order half of my textbooks today. I'll order the other half tomorrow and then hopefully this weekend I can buy the rest of my supplies.
awkwardamanda
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razzle dazzle rose
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This PMS business really blows. I can relate (I had a mini breakdown when I messed up my cake pops last month
) When it is happening I don't recognize it as PMS. And it is real either way, though my feelings and thoughts get really screwy. My boyfriend says I become like a baby that just cries. Yep. I haven't talked to any doctors about it. I read that this one birth control helps with it, but like you, I rather not take any medications. Still, I am not prepared to go through this every month. Neither are those close to me. If you get some suggestions, please share! ^Same here. PMS makes me bloat and several times, I thought I had gained weight when in fact it's just PMS. I also notice that I get crazy mood swings at certain times of the month. I'm not looking forward to my period. I wonder if mindfulness can help with this...
Phoenixx
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^ Yeah, the only reason now I'm realizing this is more than PMS is that remembering past PMS experiences, they weren't as extreme. Over the last year, my symptoms have gotten much worse which leads me to suspect I'm dealing with more along the lines of PMDD. During my period, when I hit that "rock bottom" depression feeling, I also become overwhelmed with thoughts of cutting myself. The last time I thought of doing anything of the sort was when I was 14 and hit the peak of my actual depression (which at the time was a "rock bottom" for me). I have never cut myself, I've always fought the urge, but I can't say I never got close. It's a struggle trying to break those thoughts and urges, and I'm kind of afraid one day I'll just cave -- all because of my stupid period.This PMS business really blows. I can relate (I had a mini breakdown when I messed up my cake pops last month
Also when I get pissed, it's almost like a full blown rage sometimes. If someone in my family pisses me off, I'll yell at them until they leave. If I'm pissed over something not working right, I get the urge to just smash it to pieces. I once broke a computer speaker because I was so angry I chucked it at my wall. Usually I fight this feeling, but I still slam things around. Usually after these angry episodes I'll just cry and go right back into feeling depressed again. I turn into a whole different person now when I have my period and it sucks I have absolutely no control over it. Trust me, I've tried to control my thoughts, my feelings, and it doesn't work no matter what I do.
Oh, and yeah I'm not interested in taking birth control either. A few women that I know of have had bad experiences with them and I don't want that to be me either. So far with my research I've read that 5HTP is supposed to help. I'm going to e-mail my doctor about this tomorrow, to see what he thinks. He specializes not only in regular medicine, but with natural medicines too which is pretty cool. I'll let you know what I find out.
^ It's really funny about my physical symptoms with mine. During the first few years when I started mine (About ages 11 - 15), I had no emotional problems so much as it was all physical pain and miserableness. I was so irregular my periods would last for a week or more, and then they usually wouldn't come back for another 2 - 3 months. With each one I would be so bloated, I too figured I gained weight, since none of my jeans would fit at all. The cramps were usually so bad ibuprofen and other painkillers wouldn't even work for them. Sometimes I'd just lay in bed curled up in a ball in tears for over an hour because I was in so much pain. I almost always missed school on my 2nd and/or 3rd days because I could hardly move and my flow was so bad.
Now my periods are regular and my physical symptoms are as tolerable as can be. No more excruciating cramps and only a tiny bit of bloating. It's my emotions that are completely screwed up now. I don't understand the complete flip-flop and why my body changed so much. :idontknow: I will say though I will take all those cramps and bloating back any day compared to all this emotional mess. At least physical pain goes away after a few hours. All this emotional miserableness lasts at least a week, this time around though it's been 2. :sad:
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anomicdeer
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I hate being this way! I'm not talking about SA right now. I wish my SA was worst than it is so that I wouldn't have gotten into a relationship.