How are you feeling?

Lamb

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Was feeling ok. My mood was more elevated than usual. But I just felt a slight shift in that. Teeter tottering..I need to learn how to not let other peoples happiness drain me of my own. Ugh. Worse, I'm suppose to be happy for this person. Hoping it passes.
 

planemo

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Feel even more aware of my alienation, I feel dumb and betrayed by something that has always been there for me—music. Perhaps I really am a complete moron and deserve what life has put me through so far, am I a waste of space? I only speak when I have something to say, so when I speak, why does nobody listen? I realize there is no such thing as love, but what is percieved as love seems to always be one sided. I wonder what it feels like to lose one's mind as I think I feel that right now.

why do do you feel betrayed by music?

i feel the same way though, like i deserve having all these negative things happen to me. unfortunately no one listens to me either, when i finally have something to say...
 

dottie

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i only see my nephew on the rare occasion when they need a babysitter and can't find anyone else to do it. they ignore my texts and never call me to say, "hey." just when i'm the very last resort babysitter.

should i have kept my mouth shut just so that i could have a chance to see my nephew?
 

Roman Legion

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why do do you feel betrayed by music?

i feel the same way though, like i deserve having all these negative things happen to me. unfortunately no one listens to me either, when i finally have something to say...

The only thing I ever had to connect with was music and I wanted to play guitar since I was a kid. I am in a guitar class right now and I feel one of the very few things I am interested in that I am not too dumb to get into I am actually too dumb to learn. So I have exhausted being able to enjoy things because I am so stupid that I cannot assimilate all the information behind playing a guitar. Perhaps I am good for nothing as I am incapable of doing anything at all. I tried to get answers in class but I was ignored and patronized with 'how well' I was doing and I was not doing well at all, so eventually I just started plucking two strings for about 30 minutes because I gave up and nobody seemed to notice. Music has betrayed me and I know not what to do anymore.
 

GraybeardGhost

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i only see my nephew on the rare occasion when they need a babysitter and can't find anyone else to do it. they ignore my texts and never call me to say, "hey." just when i'm the very last resort babysitter.

should i have kept my mouth shut just so that i could have a chance to see my nephew?

I'm sorry you're being treated/used this way, Dottie. Families aren't always what families ought to be. However, it seems you've left out a good-sized chunk of the story. When you opened your mouth, what came out, and what was its impact? Clear questions invite clear answers. Whatever is going on, I do hope you'll get to see more of your nephew soon. :)
 

MikeyC

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last day of adult partial hospitalization will be on Thursday. Since I have actually been working hard, it leaves me with a whole pile of problems to deal with or die. How do I find strength to pursue it? At the same time I am glad to be leaving because of all the other personalities who attend with whom I have been forced to spend time over the last three weeks. Some just never stop talking. Most of my grouch is from brand new meds that are kicking my butt and making me feel exhausted. Thanks for listening. Writing this was the best part of the day. Now for that nap.
Adult partial hospitalisation - what does that involve?

I felt kinda good after practice,, then when I came home, I opened my laptop and had a mail from my online friend, and apparently she is here in my country and she wants to hook up for dinner,, and Im kinda anxious now about meeting her haha
Meet up with her, mate! You'll regret it more if you don't. :)
 

Roman Legion

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I feel like I am done with the patronizing and hidden hostility of SPW, since I am not one of the gang here, so I am done with it.
 

ImNotMyIllness

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I feel like I am done with the patronizing and hidden hostility of SPW, since I am not one of the gang here, so I am done with it.

There is no "gang" or hidden hostility. You're being unfair to everyone here by saying that.

Most everyone here is accepting. Don't take constructive criticism as hate. If you want to get to know more people here, add them. That's what I do!
 

ImNotMyIllness

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(Home Situation) Stop Grunting Stop Grunting Stop Grunting Stop Grunting
Shut your pie hole! Shut your pie hole!


He's going to do this all F' night. I want to tap dance on his big water melon head!
 

Srijita52

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Been feeling pretty bad lately. Kinda worried about how things are going to work out in the future.

Wish I could get to sleep. -.-
I'm sorry, is there anything you're worried about in particular?
Omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shut it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:crying:
If you want to talk my inbox is open. Hang in there. *hugs*
 

Srijita52

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Alright, I thought I'd use this day to take care of myself. So I had my hair cleaned and brows done and now I'm thinking of working on the project I've been procrastinating for so long.
 

Starry

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I feel like I am done with the patronizing and hidden hostility of SPW, since I am not one of the gang here, so I am done with it.

You're not alone in feeling that way... I can count four other people who also feel that way...

To be fair, I don't think the majority of those responsible for the feeling mean to cause it... Perhaps I just hope they don't.

As for me, I'm feeling tired. I've exercised for the first time in a few days (I've been ill from stress so didn't feel up to it), which has made me feel more awake, but I had very little sleep last night after suddenly coming up with the idea of writing a children's book and writing the entire first chapter in my head because for some reason my brain decided that was better than much needed sleep... And of course, I've forgotten most of it now anyway...
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aaargh! Ma heid! Am no hungower or anything... (Ah know yer thinkin' - lyin' bastard!) :sarcastic: It's just... f**kin' insomnia! Ya bastard! :kickingmyself:
Get tae f**k, would ye!

Didnae get much sleep last night. Ma cousin - who's visting for a few days - took ma old laptop doonstairs last night an' decided tae watched movies & TV shows online at 2am. Just at exact point I was on the verge o' conkin' oot in front ma laptop upstairs in ma bedroom and got tae bed - go doonstair & turn the broadband off. Mind you, ah was just daein' the same thing. Up late watchin' TV shows & film online, while tryin' tae free up space on ma laptop's hard drive - backin' up files, etc. :giggle:

Anyway, long story short (If that's possible...?), ah was up til after 4am because ma cousin decided tae chat with me for 2 hours before watchin' whatever TV show or movies she was gonnae watch. Since ah was doonstairs anyway. She's still on ma old laptop now, watchin' stuff...

2 hours? I can barely maintain conversation for 2 minutes most times. Nevermind hours. :confused:
 

Duzmiu

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feeling horrible, according to the nurse i just had a panic attack....dont think ive ever felt that afraid before....cant stop my hands shaking now :/
 
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