There are lot of tangled stuff in my life, no hope of ever solving them. People say life is simple , some say its complex, I agree with complex. I love simple things, I can feel love and positivity at times but I do feel pain a lot more times. There are things I am ashamed and afraid to say to myself , I hide all the time, I get angry , mean ,selfish , rude when there is no apparent reason for it. I feel bad about it but I know they are just the scars that lay deep under, they are festering there but I am not able to heal , may be never will. All these words here are so meaningless, but still the are coming out of me, I can't say them to anyone, so here they are in the unknown space of the internet. There are so many things , I am real mess. I have lots of wishes, desires, dreams, mostly Disney land type , and I am a big fiction watcher and reader so I can imagine stuff that don't really exist, at least not for me. So I always feel like mess when I think if I can ever achieve those. Since they are not real for me, its just deluding myself ! And well it is okay to day dream once in a while but its good to remember they are just fragments of fiction and reality is bitter and no escaping will help.
