Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aye, me anaw. That'd be great.
How are you feeling?
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Aye, me anaw. That'd be great.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
At ma wit's end, tae be honest wi' youse.
Ah don't think ma family want me tae change. So ah guess ah jist wait this oot fur another 10 months or so then that'll be me - done and gone.
Coz I am utterly seek fed-up always huvin tae pit ma ain happiness low oan ma list of priorities. Being expected tae do summit jist tae "keep tha peace". Tellin' folk whit they want tae hear, fakin' a smile - eff that! Ah cannae dae this anymair.
Ah hope that ah die afore ah turn 40.
Ah don't think ma family want me tae change. So ah guess ah jist wait this oot fur another 10 months or so then that'll be me - done and gone.
Coz I am utterly seek fed-up always huvin tae pit ma ain happiness low oan ma list of priorities. Being expected tae do summit jist tae "keep tha peace". Tellin' folk whit they want tae hear, fakin' a smile - eff that! Ah cannae dae this anymair.
Ah hope that ah die afore ah turn 40.
BlueDays
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^ I envy cats because they can sleep whenever they want to.:sad:
If I could go to bed whenever I wanted to and get out of bed whenever I wanted to.....that would be my idea of heaven on earth.
I am exhausted. Just crawling along the floor of life this year so far. Have forgotten what it is like to be able to walk instead of crawl.:sad:
Opaline
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Since last year I've had feelings of depersonalization which have gradually gotten stronger. Half the time now I don't feel like I actually exist, if that makes sense. I wonder if it's a depression/anxiety coping mechanism and not just a symptom of something - after all, while the feelings are freaky, they make everything seem less important because if you don't feel a sense of actual reality, what does anything matter? May as well all be a dream. It's like losing your sense of self in the world, both freeing and disturbing.
Can anyone relate?
Can anyone relate?
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NamiraWilhelm
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Noooooo there'd be no more charming posts to read on here!
NamiraWilhelm
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I'm a ball of stress. I didn't know I was stressed until I noticed I was self mutilating more. I'm being made redundant in just two months so I assume it's about that. Now I'm crying a lot and have mouth ulcers too >.<
At this rate I'll keel over before the actual redundancy takes place!
At this rate I'll keel over before the actual redundancy takes place!
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
There's no' many tae read at tha moment, tae be honest wi' ya. :sad:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ah feel depressed. Stressed out. Mouth ulcers givin' me jip.
Ma sister comin' tae visit wi' tha wean 'un she hud afore Christmas year. Sorry, if this sounds mean but ah cannae be arsed wi' either o' them. Also, ah dinnae git oan wi' either o' ma sisters.
Plus, tha constant "Dae this, dae that" demands frae ma family 're jist makin' me mair depressed. Some folk jist expect too much nowadays. Yet they cannae comprehend why ah feel tha way ah do. An', apparently, that's aw ma fault - tha depression, tha anxiety. So it's got bugger all to wi' ma maw constantly sayin' that same auld pessimistic crap since ah was a teenager? Well, that's jist effin' dandy, innit?
Nae energy, nae passion anymair. Ah wish ah was 11 years old again - mainly coz that's tha last time ah recall actually bein' happy.
Ma sister comin' tae visit wi' tha wean 'un she hud afore Christmas year. Sorry, if this sounds mean but ah cannae be arsed wi' either o' them. Also, ah dinnae git oan wi' either o' ma sisters.
Plus, tha constant "Dae this, dae that" demands frae ma family 're jist makin' me mair depressed. Some folk jist expect too much nowadays. Yet they cannae comprehend why ah feel tha way ah do. An', apparently, that's aw ma fault - tha depression, tha anxiety. So it's got bugger all to wi' ma maw constantly sayin' that same auld pessimistic crap since ah was a teenager? Well, that's jist effin' dandy, innit?
Nae energy, nae passion anymair. Ah wish ah was 11 years old again - mainly coz that's tha last time ah recall actually bein' happy.
I had feelings of depersonalisation and derealisation when I was younger. It all started when I was 7 and stopped at the age of 14. While I do have an idea of what could have been the trigger, I still have no clue as to why it stopped.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aye, ah cun definitely relate. Ah've felt tha same way every since ma disability started tae worsen. Though, ah feel mair like an outsider lookin' in, y'know? Like starin' in shop windows. :bigsmile: Sorry, ah didnae mean fur that tae funny or anythin' - it wus tha only comparison ah could think of.
mg:
GraybeardGhost
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Sheeple-ish. h:
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Feelin' tired an' depressed. Got nae energy. Cannae be arsed being aroon folk. Just wish folk would respect ma wishes when ah for privacy.
Naw, ah dinnae want tae talk aboot it - so can we jist leave it at that? Or do ah need swear afore ye git tha message?
Ah just want tae be left alone.
Naw, ah dinnae want tae talk aboot it - so can we jist leave it at that? Or do ah need swear afore ye git tha message?
Ah just want tae be left alone.
MotherWolff
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I am feeling rather annoyed by a certain member on this forum. Even though I reported this member and placed them on my ignore list, they are able to chat with me in the little chat box. Even after telling this person to basically buzz off, they keep harassing me. HELP!!!:crying:
Queen_Regnant
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I feel.. alright. I want to clean my house, but I can't bring myself to be motivated to move. I have off tomorrow, so I feel like I can do it then but at the same time I know I won't. I'm a lazy butt.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Same here... Ah wish ah wus'nae, though.
NamiraWilhelm
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Awful. I'm still in love with my ex, and today, despite our agreement that he wouldn't go to a certain place, he was there. Sat there laughing with three girls.
I think I'd rather stay single for the rest of my life than endure the pain of heartbreak again. I'm always sorry I entered the relationship. When will I learn.
I think I'd rather stay single for the rest of my life than endure the pain of heartbreak again. I'm always sorry I entered the relationship. When will I learn.
Queen_Regnant
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..A mix of feelings. Really good but at the same time I am tearing up. I love everyone in this site and wish them the greatest of happiness.
GraybeardGhost
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Relieved and anxious, both for pretty much the same reason. Weird.