Lea

My mother is the same. Whatever I say, she turns against me, I can´t even say the most innocent thing without her taking it and smashing it back on me in a cruel way. Then she is jealous I don´t want to talk to her, but to my aunts and everyone else I do. She reminds me of a glue you use in a hope of getting help, but it sticks to your fingers and you can´t get rid of it.

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Graeme1988

Yeah, but besides doing that to me as well, my mother has a tendency of avoid my issues, meaning I can't talk about my depression and anxiety. Then again, she too distracted watching TV most of the time to give a fu... Sorry!

I'm going to visit my father's grave today, which is going to difficult-difficult-lemon-difficult*. Meh! Looks like it's gonna be one of those days... (*Quote taken from the 2009 British satirical comedy film, In the Loop)

Grow some balls, and speak your mind
You think you're cool like a porcupine
Biffy Clyro - Stingin' Belle

Did you think before you spoke aloud?
Your f***ing tongue it will do you proud
Biffy Clyro - Little Hospitals

You're not as messed up as you think you are
Your self-absorption makes you messier
Just settle down and you will feel a whole lot better
Deep down you're just like everybody else
Frank Turner - Reasons Not to Be an Idiot

da_illest101

I'm feeling good. Today can possibly be my last day working in a call center. For 4 years and a half I worked in customer service, and having people insulting, scream at you, not paying attention to you, making you feel miserable can do a lot on your mental. Working for a large company that doesn't give a damn about you and keep expecting more from you while they complicate your life at the same time isn't helping either.

So I finally found a new job in a goverment office and I'm starting monday, I might not want to be working full time, but i'm in debt since the call center job barely gave me any shifts and never felt like working too. I took a month off from there and if everything goes well in my new job for two weeks i'll just quit the call center

So today i'll call in sick and there is nothing they can do about it, they can give me a warning or suspend me, but i'm not gonna be there for a minimum of a month (maximum forever) so they can kiss my ***

Phoenixx

^ That's great. Keep it up!

"Don't be pushed by your problems, be lead by your dreams." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Carl Bard

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Srijita52

It sure is going to be a very emotional day for you, stay strong.
Its a good thing that you're quiting the job in my opinion if its making you feel worse.
Good luck with the new job!

Valhalla

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Graeme1988

Okay, that's me back from visiting my father's grave. It was a wee bit emotionally, but more of a revelation, truth be told. Because there was a wreath of flowers from the family, and below that, a bunch of flower with a card laid across them. The card had the names of all those who collectively wanted to pay their respects to him, people my father met in his lifetime. Here's just 3 of 'em:

Desmond Tutu, former South African Archbishop of Cape Town
Terry Waite
Heather Mills

But the one that really took me by surprise... Noam Chomsky. Noam f***in' Chomsky.
If you look again at my recent photo in the Post your picture thread, and look very closely at my bookcase you will a copy of Chomsky's book Failed States. Amazing, the things you learn about people once they're gone.

Grow some balls, and speak your mind
You think you're cool like a porcupine
Biffy Clyro - Stingin' Belle

Did you think before you spoke aloud?
Your f***ing tongue it will do you proud
Biffy Clyro - Little Hospitals

You're not as messed up as you think you are
Your self-absorption makes you messier
Just settle down and you will feel a whole lot better
Deep down you're just like everybody else
Frank Turner - Reasons Not to Be an Idiot

MrJones

I'm tired of lies I constantly hear about me. I'm tired of people making fun of me behind my back and I'm tired of people.

I remember when I first came to this site and I saw that "You are not alone". It was just another lie. I am alone and I always will.

planemo

I feel kinda stupid and lost. I hate the misery of being totally alone but then when I get a chance to be with people, I run away and do the things I normally do when I'm by myself.

MrSunday

I know what you mean. I had to put up with that. I hated it. Do not bottle up your feelings. There's a possibility you might become extremely aggressive and unpredictable.

I sometimes get extremely angry and unpredictable, mainly due to putting up with all the negativity.

I'm afraid to snap at people. Not just get angry, but do something really violent and dangerous.