How do people live like this

lonelylilly

lonelylilly

Member
damn this life is just getting to be to hard. the pain that surrounds these panic attacks are getting to much to bear. Each time I have another one I can not help but think that I am going to die from my heart exploding. I know that I am not alone and there are many people that suffer far worse then I do but I still feel alone. I feel like the whole world is laughing at me everytime I have a panic attack. I imagine that people say look at the strange woman acting like she can't breath. I just can not stop complaining about it. I'm not sure what to do. I'm trying to be positive and not a drain on the people around me but the harder I try the worse my symptoms become. God help cause cause lord knows no body elts can.[/quote]
 
joni

joni

New member
I know how you feel, I feel the same way. Alone and scared and like you will never feel normal again. I have heart problems on top of my panic attacks so when my heart pounds and skips it adds another layer of panic for me. I'm always afraid something is really wrong with me. And my husband is so tired of hearing me complain. He doesn't even try to understand. He just tells me it's in my head and I'm doing this to myself. That may be true but I can't make it stop. If I could why would I choose to live in this hell. I just want to raise my son and feel like a normal person. Each day this gets harder for me too. I am pregnant now and that has seemed to make my attacks worse. I understand where you're coming from and I hope that maybe it will help to to know that you are not alone. Im right there with you.
 
ktea

ktea

Well-known member
hey. I have panic attacks when I'm around large groups of people, which basically limits me from doing anything. =[ I shut myself up in the house. The last time I actually went out with anyone was 2 years ago.. and I'm only 15.
having SA sucks. I wish i knew someone who has sa in real life. my family makes me feel like a freak. sorry im rambling. :] I really feel for you and I hope things get better!!
 
oXyKevn

oXyKevn

Member
you are definately not alone, i have a heart murmur and every time i feel the slightest bit of panic, THE SLIGHTEST, it creates a whole other world of insanity and panic in my mind, feels like the world is ending and im having a heart attack, and believe me panicking ontop of panicking is what defines a panic attack, it is in your mind, and my GF does not understand, she says 'its all in your head, get over it'. i feel so embarrassed everytime i get one, which is almost everyday now but oddly enough i dont feel i have a social phobia, im not shy, so why do i have these reaccuring panic attacks!? mine usually hit me when im doing abolutely nothing such as watching tv.......i am currently taking 10mg valiums as needed, as soon as i feel one coming on, you better believe that i chew up a valium ASAP, which isn't good i know, but i can't get over them without it, i just can't. hopefully one day.....just know that you are not alone, i have 2 kids, and having all these disorders makes life a living hell, i do know. and i hope that we can all get through this someday, there is help out there.....
 
UniqueMoyo

UniqueMoyo

Member
Yeah like the others have said
your not alone
I remeber when i hit a rock bottom with my attacks
and i felt like no one understood and i was going to die
i felt so alone
and i remember collasping in my basement sobbing in tears
wanting to take my life
because i couldnt take it anymore
but something made me decide to not take my life
and im not sure what that was
but i still suffer from panic attacks
I get them everyday
and sometimes i just want to give up, end it all
but i know how selfish that would be
I just wish i was panic attack free
im going to a psych ward soon
for counsiling
because my panic attacks have gotten worse
im scared about it because i dont want to take meds
but i cant live this way anymore
you just have to hope for the best
its not ur fault and your not alone
 
panicNOTatTHEdisco

panicNOTatTHEdisco

Member
oXyKevn said:
you are definately not alone, i have a heart murmur and every time i feel the slightest bit of panic, THE SLIGHTEST, it creates a whole other world of insanity and panic in my mind, feels like the world is ending and im having a heart attack, and believe me panicking ontop of panicking is what defines a panic attack, it is in your mind, and my GF does not understand, she says 'its all in your head, get over it'. i feel so embarrassed everytime i get one, which is almost everyday now but oddly enough i dont feel i have a social phobia, im not shy, so why do i have these reaccuring panic attacks!? mine usually hit me when im doing abolutely nothing such as watching tv.......i am currently taking 10mg valiums as needed, as soon as i feel one coming on, you better believe that i chew up a valium ASAP, which isn't good i know, but i can't get over them without it, i just can't. hopefully one day.....just know that you are not alone, i have 2 kids, and having all these disorders makes life a living hell, i do know. and i hope that we can all get through this someday, there is help out there.....
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i hate that, when people say "oh it's all in your head." they don't understand that you have pretty conditioned yourself and your body, starting from the first panic attack and how hard it is to break. 5 years later i'm still trying to break it myself.
 
Liz17

Liz17

Well-known member
mine has been eight years, and Im still no closer to preventing them. the ignorance from people related to panic attacks is shocking, its not all in our heads, why would we wish this upon us????
 
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