FriendlyShadow
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Before you tell me it's normal for couples to argue every now and then (which I can understand), however with my parents, I don't think they can go at least for one or two days without ripping at each other's throats. I'm serious. I've truly never in my life have seen a married couple argue constantly almost every week as much as these two do! And just when they finished fighting about their old argument, a new one sparks up right after. Whenever they do start to argue, it's impossible for them to stop right after it happens. They'll just continue at it for as long as they allow it to. I've even been a victim at some points where I'm forced to listen to them shout loudly at each other, calling each other names, curse at each other, and they may not realize it, but it does affect my mood and myself in general. The more I hear them arguing, the more depressed and less motivated I start to become. It's scary! It's very rarely that we even start off the days good and continue to make them last good. Something will always tend to come up, there's always something that will set either one of them off and that's all it will take for either one of them to get fired up. All hell breaks loose afterwards (the worst part). I won't deny that my own family is terribly dysfunctional and there are certain members of my family who can't be trusted (or whom my parents have trouble trusting now.)
To make matters worse, whenever my parents do fight in front of me, I feel myself start to panic and quickly get emotional. Somehow, I try and remain strong, but the pain is so hard to take in. It hasn't been like this recently even. My parents have always been like this for years, ever since I've pretty much lived with them my whole life. I'm actually terrified that if I do start to cry in front of them, that that would really boil their anger and they'd shout at me to stop crying. I just don't know if I can take living like this... although I wish it was easier for me to just say I should deal with it, it's very very difficult. It's difficult when I have to try and hide my emotions when I'm around other people who are in better moods than me. I don't want to make any one else feel miserable because of my own problems. I think this will be one of them most ultimate stresses in my life to endure.
To make matters worse, whenever my parents do fight in front of me, I feel myself start to panic and quickly get emotional. Somehow, I try and remain strong, but the pain is so hard to take in. It hasn't been like this recently even. My parents have always been like this for years, ever since I've pretty much lived with them my whole life. I'm actually terrified that if I do start to cry in front of them, that that would really boil their anger and they'd shout at me to stop crying. I just don't know if I can take living like this... although I wish it was easier for me to just say I should deal with it, it's very very difficult. It's difficult when I have to try and hide my emotions when I'm around other people who are in better moods than me. I don't want to make any one else feel miserable because of my own problems. I think this will be one of them most ultimate stresses in my life to endure.
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