How would you rate yourself as?

FriendlyShadow

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As in looks, I'd rate myself either a 4 or 5/10 on the looks department. I think I'm just okay looking. That's it. I'm nothing that special to look at to be honest. I mostly have my bad days where I look like crap, frizzy poofy hair, bushy eyebrows, stained yellow teeth, acne on face, arms, hands, ect. My voice tone doesn't even sound attractive. It's so low and deep for the average female's, like it's so low pitched and monotone that I usually get so annoyed with it myself. I bet it's also the reason why people get irritated and ask me to speak up or I talk to soft ( I partly blame this on my voice though.) I also found out something on pictriev when I was uploading pictures on there that probably might contribute to the problem. Most of my look alikes were Leif Garrett :thumbdown:(and he's not exactly the person I wanted to look like.) I really wished I could've gone my whole life without knowing I did because we almost do look like the same person (bushy eyebrows, bushy hair, eye shape/color,) I honestly never saw him as attractive in my eyes (and the way he looks now. ) or am a fan of his music, so hearing that has ultimately damaged my self esteem more. Christ, no wonder I always look bad in pictures/video. :/ And I'm a girl! Guess I'm screwed.
 
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NathanielWingatePeaslee

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Hey, he was really pretty for a dude!

leif-garrett3.jpg
 

NathanielWingatePeaslee

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Referral denied on the link.

I honestly think a female version of him would be quite attractive. There aren't a lot of guys I could say that of.
 

NathanielWingatePeaslee

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You might want to consider shaving. o,0

Seriously though, when people have SA they very often concentrate on their own appearance which they see as hideous and how other people [people, that is, not some online point-mapping system] see them rarely has anything to do with how they see themselves.
 

FriendlyShadow

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You might want to consider shaving. o,0

Seriously though, when people have SA they very often concentrate on their own appearance which they see as hideous and how other people [people, that is, not some online point-mapping system] see them rarely has anything to do with how they see themselves.


I do shave... I didn't mean I was a male. I know a lot of people assume I am because of the logo I used for my profile, but it's only because I actually like Radiohead a lot. On a side note, I understand a lot of people with SA (like myself) unfortunately have this habit of picking out flaws/traits of ourselves that we tend to dislike. I must say that half of the time though, most people I've been around with, will usually find the smallest details to criticize me over (whether if it's my hair, even if I have it curled and done, they'll either say "Oh I don't like your hair because it looks so much like your dad's" "Your hair is so poofy." If I am supposed to clean something and I think I did my job well, "No, you didn't do this right!" "You don't listen!" and the most infamous "I should take you to a doctor to see what's wrong with you." Ouch! Now that I still remember those words, they still have left quite a mark on me. Even from my parents, they will shout at me if I tend to make the tiniest mistake, anything they know that will set them off. And while I can't control what these people say, it often makes me feel more self concious and it becomes easier to doubt myself)

I guess if a lot of people I've been around with who are able to constantly point out over everything wrong that I do or every flaw that I have, I'm not so sure if I can make myself believe that I'd be good enough in anyone else's eyes. All my life I dealt with listening to people who have used harsh criticism against anything I do or say. Even my own opinions.

I always thought that I did deserve to be treated like this, so that whenever someone is actually nice and trying to be supportive, I'm usually taken aback. I guess because I would've expected them to treat the same way as I've been treated by others. Problem is, is that I haven't been around a lot of supporting people in my life. I just had to force myself to deal these things alone without anyone's help. But, what does it matter? I really didn't have much to live for, like I said, I'm just an ordinary, plain human being. I'm no different than anyone else, I can understand that now. As for my looks, I think you are right in saying to accept myself, but it's quite hard. And I understand using online mapping points such as Heritage.com, pictriev, and other various sites aren't the most important things you can judge your looks by. I've probably used those sites since I was 15 or 16 years old, and I guess I was very surprised to see that I had a lot of male celebrity comparisons rather than female celebrities Oh well, maybe I can learn to get over that at some point.
 
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FriendlyShadow

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Oh and that leif garrett picture I sent, I do still see it (even if I am female). The eyes, face shape, mouth, ect. Just without facial hair.
 
Every woman has her own charm regardless of her eyebrows and haircut, don't you worry about that.
You could as well be bald, I'd still find you attractive.
 

Kiwong

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At uni I remember a guy reckoning that his girlfriend wasn't as good looking as Jon Bon Jovi.
 

RegalSin

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I gave up my time ( last of my twenties ) for an elderly person because two big grown men with jobs ( unlike me ) did not want to be around this person. I had my free time with no student debt and I gave up the last of my twenties ( I should have my bachelors right now ) but nobody cared about me at all, but my mom of course. Nobody cared about me being in college at all.

I feel like Rambo, in my opinion. Only without the farm house and surrounded by beggars and selfish people crying over dollars. After all of that nobody cares at all. Without the war but a fight to keep somebody alive. Nobody cares at all. Nobody. I did good in my life and I tried to go to school and tried hard to maintain my peace.

To sum up my words

Matthew 6:24
"No one can serve two masters"

I am like Lt. Francis Farwell from Shaka Zulu. A man without a shadow, a man
without a nation. I don't know where you could go but it can not be here.
 
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FriendlyShadow

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I gave up my time ( last of my twenties ) for an elderly person because two big grown men with jobs ( unlike me ) did not want to be around this person. I had my free time with no student debt and I gave up the last of my twenties ( I should have my bachelors right now ) but nobody cared about me at all, but my mom of course. Nobody cared about me being in college at all.

I feel like Rambo, in my opinion. Only without the farm house and surrounded by beggars and selfish people crying over dollars. After all of that nobody cares at all. Without the war but a fight to keep somebody alive. Nobody cares at all. Nobody. I did good in my life and I tried to go to school and tried hard to maintain my peace.

To sum up my words

Matthew 6:24
"No one can serve two masters"

I am like Lt. Francis Farwell from Shaka Zulu. A man without a shadow, a man
without a nation. I don't know where you could go but it can not be here.


I feel the exact same way about myself as well. I'm actually trying the best I can to be good citizen, a good daughter to the rest of my family, but I'm not seeing any kind of results from it. Nothing that would make me feel truly satisfied with my own life or the things I'm doing. Over time, I'm more worried that I may start to deteroriate because I have so little energy and motivation to do anything anymore. I could also be possibly suffering from chronic stress, which I never saw as an issue when I was younger. I just thought stress was just a part of growing up as a person, but I think most of it comes from negativity that others give off on me. And I continue to keep feeding and feeding off all the negativity from them.

It's so stressful. Sadly, there aren't a lot of people in this world who'd actually take the time to really listen to what you have to say. I think realistically most people would be put off by someone's who's constantly depressed or whining about how much their life sucks and how they wish they'd died. (Because trust me, I'm even guilty for being these types of people who do this to themselves) I honestly really wish society would put less pressure on people who have serious problems, depression, anxiety, ect. I think there's just so much constant pressure and stress that's placed on these people because they don't live up to society's expectations and social norms. I'm always feeling emotionally drained and tired only because I've been trying so hard to make people satisfied (mind you, these people are very demanding and critical. You may say it's easy to avoid these people or to speak up, but imagine having to live with these people for the rest of your life. These are the people I have to deal with on a regular daily basis. Every single day. Not only am I surrounded by them, but I live with them as well. These certain kinds of people are the ones you can't easily avoid. You're basically just stuck with them) People will always tend to see flaws in myself rather than actually seeing how much effort and progres I've been making. No matter how thoughtful, caring, helpful, hardworking, loving I've been torwards others, those traits are usually just taken for granted. Completely thrown to the side. There's always something to critcize me over, no matter how hard I'm trying.

I'm now starting to agree about how much everyone says that nobody cares what you have to say, no one cares. I think if people truly did care, it would have to be a situation where you're seriously in danger or are severely hurt. It's funny how people react to situations such as those where they will load you with tons of sympathy and support that way. At the end of the day, they could care less whether you live or die. Sad, but I guess that's the hard, cold truth about this world.
 
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