Josh90
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I have no friends, no girlfriend. Part of this is because I have no job and no hobbies, and part is because I have no friends to do things with (it's circular). I'm 18 and live at home, unemployed.
When I finished school it wasn't just school that I quit, it was all participation in things that fall under the meaning of "having a life." I rarely leave my house, going several days straight without touching sunlight or talking to anyone besides my mother. I actively avoided guests in the house, and my main contact with the outdoors is walks that I take in twilight hours when the streets are empty.
But really I could have seen it coming. It didn't start with finishing school, when I realised how alone I was at lunch. Roaming the playground making it look like I was off to somehwere, in Year 11(senior grade?), looking around, wondering what I should do and doing nothing. Avoiding the canteen, skipping meals, dropping contact with all but 2 friends by Year 11. Bad grades, depression, boredom at school, at home, with people, and with myself.
When I finished school it wasn't just school that I quit, it was all participation in things that fall under the meaning of "having a life." I rarely leave my house, going several days straight without touching sunlight or talking to anyone besides my mother. I actively avoided guests in the house, and my main contact with the outdoors is walks that I take in twilight hours when the streets are empty.
But really I could have seen it coming. It didn't start with finishing school, when I realised how alone I was at lunch. Roaming the playground making it look like I was off to somehwere, in Year 11(senior grade?), looking around, wondering what I should do and doing nothing. Avoiding the canteen, skipping meals, dropping contact with all but 2 friends by Year 11. Bad grades, depression, boredom at school, at home, with people, and with myself.