I am starting to not GIVE A **** about PPL**READ**

So, after I did my oral presentation in front of the entire class I feel powerful. I participate all the time in my different classes. I am not hesitate to raise my hand anymore. I want people to hear and to see that I am intelligent. This is the first time I was ever capable of doing an oral presentation on my own and I did not go blank at all. Unlike the others presenters, I was able to make eye contact and not even look at my paper and I was looking at people and I did not get intimidated at all. Before doing my presentation we went as a group to practice and I couldn't do it, although it was only half of the class there. After wasting time then I decided to go up as practice first and I was getting shaky and nervous and then I went on and they said it was really good. But then, once I went to the class and presented in front of the professor, I felt as if I was another person. To my surprise, a lot of the people who looked more social had to look down at their paper and were stuttering and I WAS NOT. I was talking with confidence and I felt special and I actually can't wait until I have to do other presentations in the future. I felt like after doing this presentation I feel like I can do anything, little by little I will overcome this.

So, I suggest some of you try. Although, I used to hang out with two girls(I am a girl as well), I started to distant myself from them. I felt as if I didn't belong with them and as if they don't want me there so I don't talk to them like that anymore. I kind of ignore them.

i've done around 10 presentations in the last 3 years, and each time i finish a presentation i feel extremely good for a few days, then i'm back to my nervous, anxious self. i don't know how you manage to sustain your confidence for so long??!

It goes up and down like a roller coaster. But, after doing this I feel like mm, why am I scared of people?. I did the presentation and did better than what I expected. So, I feel really good and accomplished. I remembered when I first saw the syllabus and saw that we had to present, I got myself physically sick. I couldn't sleep for months just thinking of doing that and I thought I was a failure. Knowing that I am not and that I tried for the first time and I succeeded tells me that slowly, if you try things can change even if is not a huge improvement. At least is something.

Sounds good to me.

I hear ya. DGAF all day long. It's been helping me slowing become different.

That's good. I've always felt like doing that... raising my hand to answer when no one else knows the answer, but only if I didn't really care what people might have thought I would have done that. I remember once there was a new school year I was going to speak up and raise my hand and answer and ask questions but I never did. and its my last year of high school.

Well, as long as you don't give a crap, but in a good way, you're improving.

But be careful with that "don't give a f-

DGAF is the path to the dark side. DGAF leads to apathy. Apathy leads to inaction. Inaction leads to a return of undesired symptoms!

And I'm done being an SA Yoda for now.

I hate hearing my own voice in the silence of the classroom. I'd have great difficulty doing a presentation, I'm not looking forward to possibly having to do them next year.

It sounds like u faced a fear and found a power w/in urself that u didn't really know was there. I think that's great! Public speaking is really hard and if u were able to find that peace w/in urself and make a presentation, I think that's awesome! I'd only like to say don't blow ur girl friends off too quickly. W/ur new found confidence, maybe u could be a help to them instead of abandoning them? If they're holding u back then I think u have to do what's right for u but, if u feel u can be of some help to them, I think u should share the wealth!

I'm glad you can present in front of a class and feel good about yourself! Go you!
I, however, am not so good. I'm usually shaking after even a one-minute speech, and I almost started crying when I horribly ruined one.
But enough about me (hah, I'm happy right now), I'm glad for you. :]