I f-ing hate me

xtina_fan81

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i hate what SA has done to me. Its stripped me of everything i can or want to be. Dunno if its harder t have had SA all your life or not, but i havent always had it, i was one of the loudest in my group of friends when i was in primary school, it all changed when i went to secondary (when i was about 12). Soi know what its like to be fine around people and be happy and normal and relaxed around friends and ive just forgotten how it feels. i cant remember what its like to be able to talk and socialise normally and connecting to people and it just so frustrating EVERYTHING SEEMS SO HARD AND UNNATURAL NOW. i feel like an alien and im not meant to be around everyone else. its them and then its me seperate from everyone. I DONT KNOW HOW TO TALK TO PEOPLE. i cant just respond to people like i used to. Ive obviously grown up since i was an outgoing and confident personn so i its even harder to learn how to do it again. I HATE WHO SA MAKES ME. ITS NOT ME.IT TRAPS ME. I HATE IT. I FEEL LIKE IMIN PRISON ON ANOTHER PLANET AND I CAN SEE EVERYHTING BUT I CANT GET TOIT. I CANT BREAK THE SEAL AND BE MYSELF. :mad::mad:::(:::(:
 

ashley90

Active member
wow i feel the exact same way about the whole thing.
i got it when i was like 14 or 15?
im 17 now and yeah i used to be really loud and have lots of friends and stuff too.
i always like find myself wondering how would i respond to this if it was a couple years ago when i didnt have SA?
it sucks i feel your pain :(
 
I know exactly how you feel ::(: It's so sad that S.A.D -_-... has taken over us. I really want to socialize good.. And be comfortable around people!
But suddenly it's different. Very strange, but true.
I think it's because we get more self concious and we SA'ers are more concious to our mind, we think too much, what makes us think too bad, and makes us even think about the bad things of a situation. We should focus on the good sides. Every situation has good sides. Remember that!
 

Ignace

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I know exactly how you feel ::(: It's so sad that S.A.D -_-... has taken over us. I really want to socialize good.. And be comfortable around people!
But suddenly it's different. Very strange, but true.
I think it's because we get more self concious and we SA'ers are more concious to our mind, we think too much, what makes us think too bad, and makes us even think about the bad things of a situation. We should focus on the good sides. Every situation has good sides. Remember that!

Tell me that when I'm in a bad situation.::p:
 

Redskinsfan

Active member
I know how you feel. I feel somewhat similar. I didnt always have SA either. Even my father tells me that I was different when I was younger. It makes me sad sometimes to think back to those happier times.
 
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