206Raider

I've gone in a transistional period in my life since I was hanging out and skipping school and doing drugs to the point I don't hang out with those people at all and I've changed my ways. I can't help that I'm quiet, I'm like a dog I don't speak but I understand, I'm caring, people tell me I look really cute all the time (though it's never helped with my shyness).

Anyways, I just feel like f--- the world cuz they made me this way but I'ma far better person than 90% the population becuase I care about things and I try to help people who need help but people still look at me like I'm a scumbag or something, and why becuase I want the world to be a better place? I had to do 70 hours of community service and a day in jail when I was 19 for 1 BEER. I've never hurt nobody! and when I was doing the community servce the people who were paid to do what they do, didn't do it becuase they took advantage of my situation so I worked in the hot ass sun while they sat in the shade and cracked jokes.

I feel like all of us are better people for the world but the world hates us, so f--- em.

206Raider

I don't know how, my mom says I'm too defensive, I always think people are judging me so I always have my guards up and people can sense it, I always feel ready to fight somebody becuase I don't want to be taken advantage of or to be seen as "soft". I'd rather help people and make the world better or something but I always catch people lookin at me mean. seems like the world did me wrong so many times too, I'm not a bad person, I don't fight, I stay outta trouble but people always gotta stare you down tryin to be alpha male or something. So I rather avoid confrontation so stay in becuase the world kicked me too many times, I won't back down anymore.....it never ends

Cynic

How do you mean 1 beer? For robbing it, drinking it or what?

206Raider

drinking 1 beer and the ******* cop said "don't drop the soap" too... when I admitted I was wrong when he caught me. I wasn't being an ******* so now I don't like cops becuase I've never met a cop who treated me with respect.

Redzer

how did they do this?

206Raider

how did they do this? many childhood experiences I had no control over. I'm sure if I was rich I would have avoided a lot of this mess and wouldn't be treated like a nobody. I've wtnessed a lot of bad things in my life, and I'm sure a lot of us have, we all deal with it differently.

Redzer

so you blame the world for what happened in your childhood yes?

jordybb

Yes you are rite but i think we our self are responsible for this ,

we have to learn how to handle these kinda jerks...

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