why_me
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I needed to find somewhere to go, where people understood me, and i'm hoping this is it. I'm 19 years old and have been suffering from social phobia/anxiety for way too long, for as long as i can remember and i have had enough. It has got to the stage where i dont have a sense of self worth, i find it hard to concentrate on anything or take things in, i dont have a favourite movie and if i was to decribe things im into i would be stuck.
i go to college but i hate going as i have no friends. I find it extremly difficult to communicate with anyone, i wake up in the morning dreading the day ahead, i get upset with myself and feel like i haven't got a life anymore. I dont know what to do, i cant help myself because i find it so easy to slump back into depression from being optimistic. I worry about everything, i moan about not being happy to my family all the time but all they say is for me to start talking to people....then thats when i realise NO ONE understands just how serious this problem is.
I feel imtimidated by all females, i feel there are so many pretty girls out there, i am extremely jealous about everything, yet i can control myself to the point i seem obsessive, but i worry way too much.
when it comes to making new friends, i get worried the person wont like me, that i have nothing to say, in fact its a visous circle for me because i want to make friends, and have a life, but its because iv no friends and i have no interests or a life worth living, that i cant strike a good conversation therfore make any friends whatsoever.
i even feel so tired all the time, that iv become so used to this feeling, i just find it comfortable sitting in my shell and keeping myself locked away from the social world, that its so hard to get out now that i feel doomed for life.I want to make friends and have a booming social life, but i also fel i cant be arsed talking to anyone and avoid it altogether...WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!!? even when i see people i know i hide to avoid confrontation...i feel such a freak
i need help i cant do this anymore, social phobia is evil and destroys your soul! does anyone understand how i feel?
i go to college but i hate going as i have no friends. I find it extremly difficult to communicate with anyone, i wake up in the morning dreading the day ahead, i get upset with myself and feel like i haven't got a life anymore. I dont know what to do, i cant help myself because i find it so easy to slump back into depression from being optimistic. I worry about everything, i moan about not being happy to my family all the time but all they say is for me to start talking to people....then thats when i realise NO ONE understands just how serious this problem is.
I feel imtimidated by all females, i feel there are so many pretty girls out there, i am extremely jealous about everything, yet i can control myself to the point i seem obsessive, but i worry way too much.
when it comes to making new friends, i get worried the person wont like me, that i have nothing to say, in fact its a visous circle for me because i want to make friends, and have a life, but its because iv no friends and i have no interests or a life worth living, that i cant strike a good conversation therfore make any friends whatsoever.
i even feel so tired all the time, that iv become so used to this feeling, i just find it comfortable sitting in my shell and keeping myself locked away from the social world, that its so hard to get out now that i feel doomed for life.I want to make friends and have a booming social life, but i also fel i cant be arsed talking to anyone and avoid it altogether...WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!!? even when i see people i know i hide to avoid confrontation...i feel such a freak
i need help i cant do this anymore, social phobia is evil and destroys your soul! does anyone understand how i feel?