I feel so horrible!

Barry1979 · 07-02-2009, 11:44 PM

One of my best friends and his woman just had a new baby a couple of weeks ago and i cannot even be around it because of my OCD bad thoughts and things like that. I told them about it and they understand but i know it really bothers them deep down.....can anyone relate?

Kinetik · 07-03-2009, 12:22 AM

Yeah dude, I know what you mean. Sometimes I'm laying in bed with my girlfriend and I get really scary, intrusive thoughts regarding violence. But it's not you, you have to understand that. You're not well, pure and simple. Are you getting any kind of help for it, like medication or therapy?

Barry1979 · 07-03-2009, 12:38 AM

No i try not to take meds but i have in the past. Yeah i have been dealing with this for a long long time. Needless to say it really sucks. But it usually only lasts for a couple of months at a time then i will be normal for a while.

FOR REAL · 07-03-2009, 01:15 AM

when my sister had her first child, she asked me one day if i could hold him while she was busy, i was petrified incase i might drop him.

i also babysat him aswell. i think that was worse, i sat listening to the baby monitor thing and whenever it went silent, i had to go into his room just to check he was ok.

so YES i can relate to how you feel, OCD is a nuisance (to say the least)

i think your friends will realise this though.just dont try to be so hard on yourself mate

Barry1979 · 07-03-2009, 01:33 AM

Yeah Dreamer i have told all of my firends about my OCD and they are very supportive although they do not fully understand i dont hide it from them and they know not to push me whenever i tell them i cant do certain things. I would be absolutely mordified to hold or be around that baby while having violent intrusive thoughts....lol i would ed up in the psych ward!

Barry1979 · 07-04-2009, 08:46 PM

OMG i am having a major OCD spike hopefully it will settle down before too long! I am having some sexual intrusive thoughts....i am so irratable and everytime someone even opens there mouth it is getting on my nerves...anyone ever feel this way?

Fast14 · 07-06-2009, 05:58 PM

i've felt that way, and i hate it cause i don't want it to end up causing more intrusive thoughts