I got kicked out /I'm heart broken.

cowboyup

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I'm crushed, my heart hurts. I won't go into details - but &*%$ hit the fan about some things and when was all said and done, they want me out Brother and SIL).

I love my nephew and niece to pieces (I've watched them since birth). All I can say is that things happen for a reason and perhaps this will all work out.

My anxiety is through the roof, I hadn't slept all night and had a panic attack.

It's going to be rough but I just have to keep saying to myself, it'll work out...

One day at a time....right?
 

cowboyup

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I think the biggest part is going to not see the kids grow up.

Though, I think with time and distance between all of us, perhaps things will heal, at least to a certain extent. And as the saying goes, 'things happen for a reason' and I will perverse and make it through this. There are things/people/ out there in this vast universe that is far, far worse than what I am going through and we all have to have faith - whatever that definition may be.

I've over-stayed my welcome by a lot of years and I think it is time to move on...a better way to look at it, right?
 

cowboyup

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Why did they kick you out? Can't you still keep seeing the kids?

Hey Sacrament,

My brother and (ex)SIL kicked me out due to the fact they think I had something to do with identity theft of our dad and SIL. SIL said she just doesn't feel safe me living with her and taking care of the kids (I have since their birth). I had nothing to do with it, and they filed police reports, and then I checked my credit and found things on mine as well, so I went and filed police report and put a fraud alert on my credit. Then my sister checked her's and she has stuff on her's so she filed police report as well. I told my brother I'd never stab them in the back - I mean credit fraud is a very serious thing!

Long story short, the SIL is 'seeing' another woman and endgame is she wanted to find excuse to get me out. I had to show her how to make the kids' lunches, what they like to eat, even basically where the vacuum is. I hope she remembers to feed the dog! I even had to tell her the morning ritual of getting the kids ready for school, their bus stop, etc...so her life just became 499% harder.

Yes, I can see the kids, but now I live 1000 miles away, living with my sister and hubby but a relative told me to get on with MY life - and let the dust settle, and then perhaps contact them. They said I can see the kids eventually, and of course there is skype and the phone but none of us have talked since the move - I left the house around the first of December, so it's still fresh and I hurt. But I have to get on with my life and hopefully eventually, things will come out - the truth - and we can at least mend fences.

But I have to say, my heart aches so bad and I feel immobilized with sadness, if that makes sense but I know i really, REALLY have to push myself to get out of the house, find a job, get my s**t together and move on.
 

cowboyup

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So I found a potential job in the new city where I'm living. I am VERY HAPPY for that. I think getting out of the house and earning my own money will help immensely.

I had a dream last night about my nephew and niece...seeing them and asking how they were, how school is for them and I gave them a big hug. At least they are in my dreams. I am sure they are well, and some day this will all be OK. I have to think that, otherwise I'd be crying day and night. I had no idea I'd feel as sad as I do not seeing those little boogers everyday.

Oh...and it's cold here, lol! I came from the desert to where there are actually 4 seasons and my car is covered in snow! I am having to learn to drive snowy weather, which makes me a bit nervous but I have to do it! So far so good :)
 
So I found a potential job in the new city where I'm living. I am VERY HAPPY for that. I think getting out of the house and earning my own money will help immensely.

I had a dream last night about my nephew and niece...seeing them and asking how they were, how school is for them and I gave them a big hug. At least they are in my dreams. I am sure they are well, and some day this will all be OK. I have to think that, otherwise I'd be crying day and night. I had no idea I'd feel as sad as I do not seeing those little boogers everyday.

Oh...and it's cold here, lol! I came from the desert to where there are actually 4 seasons and my car is covered in snow! I am having to learn to drive snowy weather, which makes me a bit nervous but I have to do it! So far so good :)
Congrats on finding a job, that will help to distract your mind from your sadness, albeit temporarily while you are at work.
Those poor children though! They will be missing you like crazy. :sad: Did their mother even bother to contemplate how losing someone who has cared for them daily since they where born would have such a devastating effect on them?
Hang in there, cowboyup. :)
 
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