lilmutegirl
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I often have thoughts of, "I hate everything" or "I hate myself," knowing that what I really mean is "I hate certain aspects of myself," or "I am upset that I did that." What's crazy is that I hate that I hate these things. I do not hate myself in general, as a whole, but there are things about me and situations which trigger these thoughts.
I recently may have made a mistake at work, and I do not look forward to working with my manager tomorrow. She's nice, and it's not a big deal--I may not have even really done anything wrong--I threw something away that was considered damaged because of packaging, but maybe it could have been sold for a lower price. I processed it in the computer, so the inventory is correct, but questioned my actions afterward.
Whenever I make a mistake, or have any reason to second-guess myself, I have these repetitive negative thoughts. When things are going well, I do not. The fact that I can identify what it is that bothers me seems like a good sign, but I feel like I can't stop having the bad feelings.
I recently may have made a mistake at work, and I do not look forward to working with my manager tomorrow. She's nice, and it's not a big deal--I may not have even really done anything wrong--I threw something away that was considered damaged because of packaging, but maybe it could have been sold for a lower price. I processed it in the computer, so the inventory is correct, but questioned my actions afterward.
Whenever I make a mistake, or have any reason to second-guess myself, I have these repetitive negative thoughts. When things are going well, I do not. The fact that I can identify what it is that bothers me seems like a good sign, but I feel like I can't stop having the bad feelings.