zav943

I think I lead a life which many could call 'successful'.

I am just about done with my engineering degree, I have a good job lined up after I graduate and I have a decent amount of money from my last job.

However, my life is so painfully empty, it's hard to put into words how lonely I get sometimes.

I have nothing that truly makes me happy anymore. Not my PS3 (I'll be selling it soon), not my music, not my academic successes...nothing. I feel like I can't take joy in anything in life, and I'm more and more being drawn to consume "soft drugs" in order to escape my misery.

I have no real friends to turn to; I sit at home on the weekends browsing the internet, and it gets so depressing once I become self-aware of how lacking my life is compared to my peers.

I'm at a very, very low point right now...hardly capable of finishing this post. So I'll get back to it later. For now, please, suggest something I could do...anything. I can't bear the stale, meaningless blandness of my life anymore. How can I find my calling?

Lonelykitsune

Same,I've lost interest in everything except music and books,even gaming which I use to love.

Get a pet maybe,like a bird?Thats what I'm going to try sometime

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And company loves more
More loves everybody else
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Gerdje

Yeah, you're meaning "I really enjoy(ed) that" feeling is no more there, depressive feelings, emptiness. There are probably thousands of people on here which feel the same, lacking in so many aspects, that we forget or don't see the little things that we do have/do. There are those things that I call my hobbies (browsing the internet, playing some PS3, watching TV) but honnestly, most of the time I'm just feeling like wasting my time without any real goal or meaning, like browsing hundreds of sites without actually reading what's on it, or deepening into a subject, feeling disconnected all the time. All signs of (mild) depression.

I personally fill night by browsing all kinds of news sites, gaming sites, forums, software sites, rushing through it all but honestly not having read 1 things seriously, taking the time to do it, just like watching TV, switching channels on the fly, no more taking time to watch & try to enjoy a full movie.

I personally only experimented with soft drugs a very long time ago, and looking back, in my personal case, it made things just worse.

It's such a cliché and probably you heard it hundreds of times, but ... Head up, and start by trying to enjoy little things, just a little chat, just something little you see or read, try not to "breed" on all the negative things you feel, just little by little.

chickenmaryjane

well, volunteer to help those in need. Prayer helps also.

Olhos Abertos

Congratulations on your degree,I wish I was at that stage of my life,what I would sugest is to find a club of some sorts or some sport that you like or anything like it,I think this would be a good start.

blackcat

Why don't you see a therapist or a psychiatrist? Antidepressants might make you feel better.

Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm...

Anti Matter

I agree with Lonelykitsune. Pets are great for companions specially dogs. I have Keiser, my Siberian husky. Without him I have no idea where I would be. He's gotten me through loads of tough times. No matter what if you bring them up right, siberians or what ever dog you choose they know when you are down or depressed and are always there for you.

Better than some humans imo.

If we all reacted the same way we'd be predictable and there's always more than one way to view a situation.

What's true for the group is also true for the individual.

It's simple: overspecialize, and you breed in weakness. It's slow death.

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Kiwong

You've got to try.

Try to make yourself feel better within yourself, if only to spite the anxiety and depression. The anxiety and depression may still win most of the time, but at least you tried and sometimes maybe you will win and feel better about things even for a moment. Then you can say take that anxiety.

Give money to charity
Help yourself and others. Keep a good things list and try to build on it.
Exercise, sport. It can improve your mind, and the drugs produced are free (endorphins, seritonin).
Plan holidays, adventures. See the world, the country you live in.
Watch sunrises and sunsets
Take photographs, write stories, paint, draw.
Study for a masters or pHd.
Make a home for yourself
Get a pet or a menagerie of them. Then you will think about looking after your pets and not yourself all the time.

Happiness to me, is like a beautiful bird of paradise, elusive and rarely seen, but enjoyed ever more so for each brilliant and unexpected sighting.

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Nanita

Hi
I also get VERY VERY DEPRESSED, and I often think that the best sollution for me would be to die, basically. But I know that I could never really kill myself, I´m too scared.
But, I also have good moments/days.

A pet could bring happy times. I will definitely get a dog when I find another place to live in a couple of months.

Travel to exciting/beautiful places, like the caribian coast in Costa Rica, or Bali in Indonesia... Or how about an ayurvedic retreat in India... Daily treatments with massages and healing. (Prices are low in India)

And how about trying to NOT use the computer too much. I have noticed that I sometimes get extra depressed when I spend hours n hours in front of a screen.

GO TO THE NATURE.... Even if it doesn´t seem "interesting" at first, you should to try to reconnect with nature, it can make you feel the oneness that exists there. Deep forests, deserted beaches, mountains...

I wish u all the best, and remember u are not the only one who feels that life is like a harsh joke.

Pacific_Loner

I would really suggest doing sports and outdoor even if it sounds like a very annoying suggestion....
Or take a class of anything that you wish you could do (music, art, dance, language) but don't dare "because of your SA", and swear to yourself you will do it until the end even if it kills you
A dog is a good idea too, not only that dogs are awesome, it would force you to go outside and play with it and maybe talk to people who likes your dog.

"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" - Krishnamurti