I honestly think I can beat SA. I'm feeling oddly optimistic today.

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SadSally

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For the past few days I've become increasingly stronger. Nothing has really happened to make me change I just feel different than before. I was bored last night, decided to dress myself up and wear make up for no reason, looked in the mirror and realized that I'm not hideous. When I stopped feeling like a self loathing troll i got to thinking that I have just as much right to be in the world as anybody else. I thought back to all the times I've been forced to face my SA such as school presentations, cashier check out and such, and how much they made me feel like a wreck. Now, I feel like if I could handle it back then, I should be proud and know that I can only improve. I'm not on medication or anything, I just feel different. I've developed a go with the flow attitude.
Anybody else get these random happy periods? I was depressed last week and having suicidal thoughts. This happens a lot. I don't think I'm bipolar?
 
Niche23

Niche23

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I feel like that sometimes too (happy bursts and sad periods), I guess whether or not you're bipolar depends on how long both last.
 
Sourgirl

Sourgirl

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SadSally said:
For the past few days I've become increasingly stronger. Nothing has really happened to make me change I just feel different than before. I was bored last night, decided to dress myself up and wear make up for no reason, looked in the mirror and realized that I'm not hideous. When I stopped feeling like a self loathing troll i got to thinking that I have just as much right to be in the world as anybody else. I thought back to all the times I've been forced to face my SA such as school presentations, cashier check out and such, and how much they made me feel like a wreck. Now, I feel like if I could handle it back then, I should be proud and know that I can only improve. I'm not on medication or anything, I just feel different. I've developed a go with the flow attitude.
Anybody else get these random happy periods? I was depressed last week and having suicidal thoughts. This happens a lot. I don't think I'm bipolar?
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I feel randomly happy sometimes but then I go back to my old ways when something bad happens or someone says the wrong thing to me. It's up and down with me.
 
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TheNomad

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If these opposite moods keep happening, and mostly for no reason, then that is a possibility of bipolar. Also you have to become depressed after an extremely active period (not necessarily happy, i guess, only 'maniacal' hence manic-depressive)..Of course i am no psychiatrist but that is what i know of it.

If you are happy and feel strong, good for you then!
 
Sacrament

Sacrament

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I've noticed that a lot of people who have SA are very pleasing to the eye but have such a distorted view of themselves that they just can't see it and embrace it. Goob job on making yourself feel positive!
 
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Monkish1

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Yes, I experience such shifts in perspective and mood as well. Being happy for no particular reason mixed with the desire to check out. I'm glad you posted on this topic. There are several types of bipolar disorder that I can remember from psych class. However, a 'go with the flow' approach may be a healthier alternative to diagnostic labels.
 
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Zooman

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SadSally said:
For the past few days I've become increasingly stronger. Nothing has really happened to make me change I just feel different than before. I was bored last night, decided to dress myself up and wear make up for no reason, looked in the mirror and realized that I'm not hideous. When I stopped feeling like a self loathing troll i got to thinking that I have just as much right to be in the world as anybody else. I thought back to all the times I've been forced to face my SA such as school presentations, cashier check out and such, and how much they made me feel like a wreck. Now, I feel like if I could handle it back then, I should be proud and know that I can only improve. I'm not on medication or anything, I just feel different. I've developed a go with the flow attitude.
Anybody else get these random happy periods? I was depressed last week and having suicidal thoughts. This happens a lot. I don't think I'm bipolar?
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It's good that you face your anxieties when you have to but i don't believe it is possible to naturally beat SA. The reason i say this is because i believe it is genetic. It's awesome that you look back at those experiences with pride now though. And yes it is normal to feel good when you are proud of yourself and to feel like shit when you are anxious and worried.
 
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