I lost interest in my one true passion.

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Up until the age of about 21, in my memory at least, I used to love creating; music, art, animation, anything. I had so much passion for it I often felt like I couldn't NOT create. But after that age creating started to become more of a battle for me. I began to question the meaning and purpose of it all and had to fight with this huge disinclination to create every day. For a little while I almost gave up altogether.

But gradually I started to get back into art again, and one of the major reasons was because of an author called Eric Maisel. If you haven't heard of him I would ABSOLUTELY recommend you check out his books, particularly "Creativity for Life". It's become a second Bible for me. "Fearless Creating" and "The Van Gogh Blues" have been a great help for me too. Also a little book called "Art & Fear" by Bayles and Orland helped me a lot aswell.

Basically there are just so many myths and faulty beliefs in most artists brains [at least there were in mine], and these books reveal the truths about it all. Like, did you know that 98% of art majors are no longer practising art within 5 years of graduation?! Making art is difficult and the challenges artists face are immense, and yet most people don't seem to be prepared for this [I wasn't]. The rate that people give up is dizzying. There's so much baggage and so much blockage involved it takes a lot of self control and courage to keep creating.

I'm 31 now and I'm still regularly creating, but it isn't easy. I still have to face the disinclination to work every day. I still have the same meaning crises, I still wonder why I bother, I still have many of the same doubts. But over the years I've also built up a load of tools to help me manage these feelings. Like "morning pages" where you just write 3 pages of absolutely anything to help yourself unblock. It works a treat! And I have lists of reasons to keep going pinned up all over my room.

So my advice would be, DON'T GIVE UP! and I definitely recommend you find a good book on the subject to help you understand the battlefield a little better.

I would give art a break altogether. You can't force yourself to get interested in something.
Maybe you need a total break from it. It won't mean you'll never like to draw again.

Think of it like a relationship, even the most devoted couples benefit from some time spent apart.

On the other side maybe thinking about your life as a whole, your time spent drawing has come to its end. Perhaps you need a new love in your life, something to reinvigorate your passion.
In any case I'd certainly take a break from it.
You'll know if you've had enough, or maybe after a while you'll want to draw again

You could also try a completely different approach and see if it relaxes or stimulates you enough to start working. I know people sometimes start with expectations that are hard to meet while they're depressed or not feeling very confident.

you could play some chess cuz it requires analytics not art creativity so yeah you gotta even your brain out lol

I know how you feel! I used to get this feeling frequently for many years. Of course I still get it now but I have learnt how to deal with it better. Every Time you get a block it's usually because you have improved and your eye for art improves along with it. Which means your self expectancy is higher and everything you draw for a while it seems terrible and you lose faith. I noticed sometimes it would last a little amount and other times it would last a long amount. But what I do to overcome this is try to get inspired. You dont have to draw. Just look up art you're interested in. I find nowadays when I hit a wall I have a day off to just relax and watch my favourite artist documentaries (usually basquiat, bacon or freud). Seeing that they too started off as beginners and then became great artists is so inspiring and gives you so much more hope to keep pushing.

It can be hard if you have stopped for a long time to get your mojo back. I would say slowly wean yourself back into it. Spend as much time as you can looking at the art that makes you excited. Then even if its just for a few minutes a day, try to draw something to just let out that passion and excitement you get from looking at all that great art out there.

Hope this has helped in some ways!

What kind of drawings do you do by the way?

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I love to draw, for myself it was also a passion. I wish I hadn't stopped either, see I use to draw really well and enjoyed it so I signed up for an art course. The teacher told me my art looked terrible and that I didn't have any skill to get in. Ever since then I haven't drawn a single thing. Don't let anything stop with your passion, I sure wish I haven't.