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And I don't want to. I have a husband I love, we're building a house, I love my family. I have everything to live for but it seems my anxiety keeps getting worse all the time. I'm afraid it will get to the point where I am so debilitated that I won't be able to work and we'll lose everything and my husband will leave me.
I have depression, anxiety and hyperhidrosis. I was able to fight my anxiety pretty well and go to work until I decided to change careers. So I went to cosmo school. Well there I discovered I have hyperhidrosis. I always knew I sweat more than other women but with this career I;m moving and running around a lot. Before I sat at a desk. And maybe its not quite HH but I do sweat like a disgusting pig. I tried to quit a bunch of times in school bc I'd sweat so bad it would be in my eyes and I couldnt concentrate on the job. Then I'd get embarrassed and nervous and the anxiety would kick in. My husband convinced me to stay in school and that I could overcome it.
Well I've worked in 2 salons and have had the same problem. I sweat like a pig and blush like crazy. I can't concentrate and I wind up rushing my client out of the chair so I can hide in the back room until I dry off.
I start a job at a new salon today bc the last one was like being in the military. The manager's had a habit of embarrassing you in front of a client and calling you out. That I couldn't take at all so I start at this salon which is more laid back.
I went in yesterday for 1/2 hour just to get my info in their system and get tax forms filled out etc and I started sweating. I don't know why. I wasn't nervous. It was warm in there but not hot. And I was just sitting there filling out paperwork. By the time I left my head was soaked. Everyone was looking at me like I was a freak. I was so embarrassed. I just got over stomach flu so my boss thought I still had a fever and that 's why I was sweating. I am so scared about going in there today and sweating.
I'm sitting here shaking as I type. I just got done crying a few mins ago and thought maybe I could feel better if I let all this out. My husband is supportive of me as best he can be but I know he doesn't fully understand. He'll say, "So you sweat. who cares what they think?"
I'm in a salon with all these women who are freezing when the thermo is at 72 and I'm soaked.
And I can see from his point of view. I job hop and have these fits of anxiety and cry and get immobilized. I'm sick a lot and I think the anxiety lowers my immunity. I have a mitral valve prolapse which causes palpatations and hyperventilation on top of eveything.
I thought about going to my boss and explaining my HH and at least with her knowing I'd feel better. But I'm too humiliated.
So lately I feel like suicide is the best solution. My husband could go on and not have to worry about me. My parents wouldn't have to worry about me. I know its not that simple but sometimes I feel so overwhelmed I don't know what to do. And all bc I sweat like a pig. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I have depression, anxiety and hyperhidrosis. I was able to fight my anxiety pretty well and go to work until I decided to change careers. So I went to cosmo school. Well there I discovered I have hyperhidrosis. I always knew I sweat more than other women but with this career I;m moving and running around a lot. Before I sat at a desk. And maybe its not quite HH but I do sweat like a disgusting pig. I tried to quit a bunch of times in school bc I'd sweat so bad it would be in my eyes and I couldnt concentrate on the job. Then I'd get embarrassed and nervous and the anxiety would kick in. My husband convinced me to stay in school and that I could overcome it.
Well I've worked in 2 salons and have had the same problem. I sweat like a pig and blush like crazy. I can't concentrate and I wind up rushing my client out of the chair so I can hide in the back room until I dry off.
I start a job at a new salon today bc the last one was like being in the military. The manager's had a habit of embarrassing you in front of a client and calling you out. That I couldn't take at all so I start at this salon which is more laid back.
I went in yesterday for 1/2 hour just to get my info in their system and get tax forms filled out etc and I started sweating. I don't know why. I wasn't nervous. It was warm in there but not hot. And I was just sitting there filling out paperwork. By the time I left my head was soaked. Everyone was looking at me like I was a freak. I was so embarrassed. I just got over stomach flu so my boss thought I still had a fever and that 's why I was sweating. I am so scared about going in there today and sweating.
I'm sitting here shaking as I type. I just got done crying a few mins ago and thought maybe I could feel better if I let all this out. My husband is supportive of me as best he can be but I know he doesn't fully understand. He'll say, "So you sweat. who cares what they think?"
I'm in a salon with all these women who are freezing when the thermo is at 72 and I'm soaked.
And I can see from his point of view. I job hop and have these fits of anxiety and cry and get immobilized. I'm sick a lot and I think the anxiety lowers my immunity. I have a mitral valve prolapse which causes palpatations and hyperventilation on top of eveything.
I thought about going to my boss and explaining my HH and at least with her knowing I'd feel better. But I'm too humiliated.
So lately I feel like suicide is the best solution. My husband could go on and not have to worry about me. My parents wouldn't have to worry about me. I know its not that simple but sometimes I feel so overwhelmed I don't know what to do. And all bc I sweat like a pig. I just don't know what to do anymore.