I Want To Be Alone....Forever

I am quite content at the thought of that....living the rest of my days in solitude or at least in a house or apartment by myself.

So I moved out of my Dad's RV into a hotel temporarily today. I didn't even tell my dad. I just grabbed my purse and caught a cab.

I told my favorite brother about it. He says he doesn't want me here cause I am alone without any type of weapons for self-defense like pepper spray. I saw a couple of shady men. One of those men just kept staring suspiciously at me.

I told my bro I would come back right away if my dad apologized for locking me out of the RV. He wouldn't, so I am staying put until its time to go on home.

I am sad that it has come down to this. All my dad does is whine and complain like a child. I had my headphones on and listening to music ignoring his incessant complaints. Then he screamed to the top of his lungs and locked me out.

To make matters worse, he just had back surgery and his left leg is killing him. He has a hard time getting around. He might need my help. But he pissed me off so bad I hardly care.

Now that I am alone, I am in Heaven.

tick-tock,tick-tock,tick-tock... you can't outrun the clock.

I have lived in isolation for 8 years because my family is dead, as long as you have someone things can change. But when they are gone, so are all the chances. And your choices too.... Tick-tock,tick-tock,tick-tock...

Alienated said:

tick-tock,tick-tock,tick-tock... you can't outrun the clock.

I have lived in isolation for 8 years because my family is dead, as long as you have someone things can change. But when they are gone, so are all the chances. And your choices too.... Tick-tock,tick-tock,tick-tock...

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It may seem hopeless to find someone because of SA and to just accept that being alone is easier and better. But to me, humans evolved as being always together, but now the way we live totally separates everyone. So it is a choice that you have to make, which being alone is totally fine, but that clock indeed is always ticking. I hear it even when I'm not even near a clock