If you had a choice

defiance

defiance

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I for one wish I was never born. It's a thought that goes through my mind all the time because I am always miserable and hate the fact that I let people around me down. But what if you had a say in the matter. Knowing how your life was going to turn out up to this very moment in time, would you choose to still be born or opt out?
 
Pacific_Loner

Pacific_Loner

Pirate from the North Pole
I once felt the same and would have opt out. However I'm glad I stayed in the game because things turned out well (so far). If you would have tell me years ago that one day, I would be where I am right now, I would have briefly stopped kicking my head on the wall to laugh at you before going back to my despair.

Sorry for the bad english, I'm having trouble with the past tense.
 
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slimjim119

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The way I feel now I would opt out. Maybe I'll change my mind. My life hasn't been total misery. I've had some good times and moments to remember.

But lately every day is a challenge. It's starting to wear me down. Life is too difficult sometimes.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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I wrote this on my blog three years ago.

Perspective


What if I saw this world through new eyes? A newly awakening concsiousness seeing everything for the first time? A choice is before me, I can spend more time in this amazing place, or to sink back into unknowing. There will be problems and pain, I am told, fear, failure, complication and despair, but the true nature of these problems are not made clear to me. I have to take a chance, to exist or not. Lately, I’ve witnessed seconds so wonderful to make my choice easy. I would choose to stay and experience this earth in a heartbeat.

What I’ve seen in my years running has been worth the price of admission to this world. Often I have been sliding into a nightmare, while clinging to a dream by my fingernails. That’s what life is.
 
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zharl

zharl

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Honestly, it depends on my mood. My feelings on the matter can be rather fickle. Yes, I have found times where I've felt that I wish that I didn't exist and times when I've felt the opposite. Really, I just try to make meaning out the life the best that I can.

Remember this: life is worth living. If you're feeling otherwise and you're worried you may act on a certain type of impulse, I urge you to take a look at this thread.
 
S_Spartan

S_Spartan

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Opt out. I've never fit into this planet. I've known this from the time I was a child.

I don't like the way the world works.

It's almost a supernatural thing.

People like Donald Trump and Hilary Clinton are people who are definately meant to be here and the universe rewards them greatly and they fit like a glove and they are loved.

Then you got you everyday worker type people who belong here also but just barely and they get their stuff to stay alive and have a little fun.

Then you got people like me who aren't meant to be here and so nothing works out, but you can still survive, but you aint gonna have much fun and everything is a struggle.

Then there are people who never had any chance at all and those people are no longer with us.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Definitely opt for never being born. If ah knew how much of a struggle and how much I'd be discriminated against, I'd happily died birth rather almost died as I had done.

Ah don't huv a place where ah feel ah belong. Nor do I fit in anywhere, never have. Ah feel like I'm drift through life, just existing and not really living.
 
squidgee

squidgee

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I'd choose to still be born. If only because I'm 19 and life could take a number of directions from where I am now. Wouldn't want to make such a permanent decision when I don't even know what's to come, good or bad.
 
kilojoule

kilojoule

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kihira said:
Life is only a temporary thing, so its not as though you're signing up for ever.
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You've really hit the nail on the head there

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Joule ponders this

I often have these moments were I forget my age....my default age is 23, whenever it comes up in conversation I think 23....wait...no.....and then Im shocked when I remember that I havent been 23 for several years.....the clock is always ticking. I wish I could sign up for longer, I definitely would. While here there is always possibilities.
 
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fate12321

fate12321

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Honestly, I feel the same. I don't know what I'll do with my life. I don't know how life is lived nor do I know how relate to others. I know that I'll live my whole entire life alone and that I may end my own life somewhere along the near future.
 
defiance

defiance

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S_Spartan said:
Hate to be a downer but that just isn't the case for everybody. When the "magic and wonder" goes, it reallllllly goes!
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First off thank you to everyone that responded. And for some of us, there is still hope and magic in the world. However, as S_Spartan said, for some of us there is no magic left. It is genuinely all gone. So it really just depends on where you fall on the spectrum. But for me, it is all gone and everyday is a burden filled with anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts. You can only take so much of it before you want to give up.
 
defiance

defiance

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fate12321 said:
Honestly, I feel the same. I don't know what I'll do with my life. I don't know how life is lived nor do I know how relate to others. I know that I'll live my whole entire life alone and that I may end my own life somewhere along the near future.
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:( Same here.
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

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I would definately choose to opt out of life, as all the suffering has been just too much to make ANY amount of pleasures/fulfilment/etc worth living for. Right from the start, i think my genetics were totally screwed & designed for maximum stress/suffering. And if a safe, easy, painless way to end life were provided (eg pop a pill, or take an injection), most days i would take it in a heartbeat.
 
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