I'm a guy and i've been having feelings for this other guy at my school named Tanner. The more I try to turn the feelings off the more I find attractive about him. From his hair to his eyes to his smile. As a matter infact I had two dreams about him last night 8O (they were good by the way
) I've liked girls in the past but lately all I can think about is guys. Tanner in particular. There's some problems with me liking him though.
I've known him since middle school and we're not best friends but we know each other to a certain level where if we see each other we'll talk. His brother Jordan is gay so I know he's not a homophobe but I don't want to tell him how I feel because comeing out in highschool is like the worst possible time to come out because there are so many homophobes in school i'll never live it down and i'm already trying to make more friends and i'll kill my chances if I come out because all people will see in me is that i'm gay and nothing else which is sad. I don't know why people care so much. Someone's sexual orientation is not that big of a deal. Gay guys are humans just like straight guys and lesbian woman are the same as straight woman. The only difference is who we choose to love. It's not like one day we wake up and says "Hey, i'm gonna be gay or i'm gonna be a lesbian" The feelings just come to you and don't even get me started on all the stupid stereotypes.
But back on topic the other problem I have is that my family is a Christian family so telling them is a big no no. I've been praying and stuff and I just don't see why God would not like the same sex loveng each other. What's the problem with it? It's not just about having sex with that person you fall in love with the person too. Tanner is such an awesome, handsome guy and I just want to be with him and be loved by him. I don't know what do you guys think about all this? (sorry this was a little long 8) )