i'm so depressed

hey,

i don't know what to do. I'm just sitting here doing nothing the whole day, and feeling stupid. I wish I could do something, but I can't, because I feel like hiding from the world because I hate myself. I ****ing hate myself.
I start to lose hope, yesterday i felt so awkward while having dinner with my family, and i feel like i could die, out of misery.
I can't cope with any people around me, because I feel uncomfortable around them, and i feel like there must be a miracle who can escape me from thiis.
My life is destroyed,SA makes me feel so sick around people and BDD makes me feel the most fugly person in the world. And this all makes me unemployed, no job, no school, a life full of boredom , I want to do something like everyone else, but now it's already been 3 years... Please for god sakes.. im getting more and more depressed.. my life sucks.....
IM SORRY PEOPLE! for thiis stupid fugly post, but i feel like this more and more. getting depressing thoughts, and feeling worthless.
just because i dont have anything to do, and i have a low self esteem.
I feel desttroyed
 

planemo

Well-known member
Yeah i'm pretty much in the same position as you. I'm very self conscious too and I feel very uncomfortable about the way i look. How people see me, well it doesn't really have an impact on me. Only how I see myself is what counts. I suppose it is the same for you, there's just one person who you can't seem to convince that you are ok and that person is yourself.

I know the feeling all too well, and the sad thing is that we are holding ourselves back, based on our own faulty perceptions. Yeah we know it's faulty, but we don't really know it's faulty. I wish I had an answer for you to tell you that do this and that and everything will be fine, but I don't coz I'm dealing with the same thing. If your depression is becoming too much though then I would suggest some professional help. I went on meds and it has helped me a lot. So there is an option in that.
 

Lionheart

Banned
I also feel like ****e.You could do thinks that you like if you dont feel well.I always do workouts to be able to feel myself.I hope you get better soon and no you are not ugly but if Imalready depressed i feel even more worse when ifeel ugly.


I hope you are well and have a nice day!
 

DespairSoul

Well-known member
Flowergirlie,

I can shake your hand and say oh yea welcome to the same misery world what we create for one side we self but for other with help of others. Yea is just sucks..and we are just lost it in own fantasy world wich dont exist. Appearance can very much change live i know it. We dont look so bad as we see us but we just dont want accept this what we see propably others dont see us so bad as we do! Be strong the most as u can!
 
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EscapeArtist

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I don't know what to say girlie. It pains me to hear that you're having such a hard time, because I know you are so strong! I know that it's in you to challenge this, you just are in one of those "one step backs". Because, I've listened to your videos, and read a lot of your posts, and I know that you can do this girl. These miserable times are what push us to go one step further outside, they become what pushes us to get better, to escape this misery. And it also quite pains me to hear that you think you are so ugly! You are one of the most beautiful girls I have seen! Envy haha. But, BDD is a really hard one, and unfortunately nobody can change your self image except yourself.... I am completely clueless when it comes to beating BDD because I haven't made any progress with my own. The only thing that helps me is thinking of other people, other people who might think they have flaws themselves (maybe if they're a little overweight, or something) but are absolutely beautiful, especially because of their personalities. Why are we not the same? Why do we put so much pressure on our appearance when we are so accepting of others? I dont know what to say girlie, but I know you are strong. 3 years must feel like a very long time to be fighting. Sometimes when we seem as if at our worst, it is because we are hiding from our progress. Try to think of the little progresses you have made, even if its just in your thinking.
And try to remember that we have really bad moments, because, for a moment, we must have had hope. There's nothing wrong with that, a lot of the time hope will return (((Hug)))
 
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