I'm so fed up of trying with some people and sick of myself obv!

And first thing you're gonna say is that i don't even try isn't it. well im sorry but i fkn do and i shall tell ye why.

sorry. but i do think i do care about other people.

apparently no-one believes i have sa. don't lie you know it's true. they look at the way i look and think no way can i have sa. :

but, um if i didn't i wouldn't be sitting here in the house right now lonely and bored as fck. i duno whether to cry or go mad or both.

And also, someone on msn and other places obv have a problem that's makin thum sad, i ask what is the matter and they never wanna say . oh but im not nice so why would i care hpw people feel. well i believe i do, if i see that someone says there not okay i'd wanna know why, they just obv don't like or trust me AT ALL. so they won't say what's rly up

I just got up at 4pm, i'm gona go back to bed now, cos my life certainly isn't worth bein in right now.

What a lonely, crappy existance.
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Dont be sad ::

Take it as a compliment that people look at you and think you can't have SA. Honestly, I wish someone thought I was too good looking to have confidence problems, but I accept that isn't the case for me. I can imagine it can be frustrating in some ways, but ignore that side of it and take confidence from the compliment!

As for MSN, I doubt they didn't want to talk about it because they think you're not nice. I haven't used MSN in a while, but I used to talk to a friend in Falkirk a lot, and I often didn't want to talk about my problems too, because I didn't want to seem depressing all the time. Especially when they had just told me what an awsome day they'd just had. Anyway, don't take it personally because there could be a hundred reasons why they didn't want to talk about it, 99 of them having nothing to do with you as a person.

Bad looks isn't the only reason to have SA.People who think that a good looking person can't have SA are very close minded and if they have SA they are nowhere near in curing themselves cause they don't even have a clue about their own ilness

Stupid comments like: 'you can't have SA you are pretty' pisses me of as much as the other one which goes something like: ' you don't talk much'

oh my goodmess. people have laughed in my face when i told them i was shy (i don't say SA). They just don't see the spinning mags under the veneer.