I'm so stupid

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I can imagine the situation. I've done this before.

I've had many embarrassing episodes in the past. People forget about it, but sometimes we don't. It's okay to feel stupid, but know it's normal to make mistakes. Try practicing some type of relaxation techniques before going to college. If you feel your mind is racing and you can't keep track of your thoughts, stop for a while, sit down and breath slowly. I know all about panic attacks since I've been having them all my life. We have to try and feel safe within the environment we irrationally find threatening. This takes time, but try to convince yourself to see the beauty in your surroundings.

The other day I went out and I felt an attack coming on, so I decided to distract myself from thinking about the thing that might cause me to panic. So I just looked around and for the first time I realised how beautiful the building around me was. I took an interest in the design and the intricate workings of the decorations, and I forgot about worrying for a while. I'm sure your college has some nice benches or trees and lawns so just realise how pleasant the surroundings can be and hopefully your panic will subside.

bguimaraes said:

Yesterday I was going to college, I took a Rivotril before, just like another day... My class is number 4, so okay, I walk really fast, just to sit in my place and try to relax, so when I do it everybody is looking at me... I felt starting to get blush. Then I look to the teacher and it's the teacher from geography class. OMG wrong class.
a) you stand quietly out of the room.
b) you stand like the Flash with all your stuff in hand, almost dragging the backpack on the floor and runs out of the class.
I choose b, I feel so stupid, I can't even back to college. When in the reality I should just searched my for my class, sit down and ok, this happens sometimes.
But I've been having panic attacks, almost everyday, this is killing me. I'm thinking about leaving college and devote myself only to therapies. Because the reality is I CAN'T LIVE OUTSIDE ANYMORE.

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That is totally the sort of thing i do My SA was probably at its worst in college and I ended up leaving just before i would of got my grades. Tbh I don't think i could of coped those last months there.

Every morning as soon as i got the bus the anxiety would start. I had a panic attack most days at college and it just stressed me out so much and made me so drained.

Yeah I think you should give yourself some time to just concentrate on getting better. People don't realize how crippling SA really is. I have had a few therapists and have been experimenting with many different techniques. I found for me EFT has worked best along with exposure therapy. But it's finding what works best for you and then making a habit of using it. I miss having a therapist though they really help and its so so good having that person to offload your feelings to without feeling judged.

I hope you get better soon! We will all overcome SA together!

bguimaraes said:

Yesterday I was going to college, I took a Rivotril before, just like another day... My class is number 4, so okay, I walk really fast, just to sit in my place and try to relax, so when I do it everybody is looking at me... I felt starting to get blush. Then I look to the teacher and it's the teacher from geography class. OMG wrong class.
a) you stand quietly out of the room.
b) you stand like the Flash with all your stuff in hand, almost dragging the backpack on the floor and runs out of the class.

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Ah did that once in secondary school, the first day of ma 3rd year. Tryin' to find ma English class. "Is the right class?" Thankfully the teacher ah asked that question to asked me who ma English teacher wuz, ah apologised and back oot the doorway, and blotted doon the corridor tae the classroom at the very end, ah wuz aboot 10 minutes late for ma first lesson.

Most of us huv made that mistake once in our school/college years, don't beat yersel' up aboot it. Embarrassing, yes. But ye look back on the moment and laugh to yersel'. Honestly, give it time...

bguimaraes said:

But I've been having panic attacks, almost everyday, this is killing me. I'm thinking about leaving college and devote myself only to therapies. Because the reality is I CAN'T LIVE OUTSIDE ANYMORE.

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Sorry to hear that, sweetheart. I hope you find a way of dealing with the panic attacks and get better.

It's a complicated decision to make. I would not want to influence you too much. I left college and in some ways I do regret it and in others I don't. I mean theres so many factors to take into account.

Maybe spend a little time figuring out if its worth pushing through college. I kind of realized I didn't even want to go college in the first place. It was just because everyone else was telling me I should.

But maybe there is a real passion in what you're doing in college and there's a career you're hoping to go into. You know its a very tricky subject to tackle and only you can make the right decision.

Good luck and I hope you make the right choice in the end

As hard as it's to try to control your panic attacks I say if you really want to finish school you gotta try your hardest because you gotta think this way.. ok i quit college,, now i gotta start a job and it might be harder in the long run....

The worst time of my life was high school, college was bad but wasn't as bad... what usually works for me is pretend nothing happened, and people will forget. probably people won't even remember what happened after 1 hour.. but in our minds we over think about it and keep thinking just to make it worst...

give it a go at least, it might help you... go to college and pretend nothing ever happened,, was just a bad dream.. if somebody asks.. you can be like.. humm what are you talking about..

No, you're not stupid, you just a made a mistake. It's normal!
Many, many people have done the same thing, at least once in their life.

Don't feel so bad. We often percieve things much worse than what they actually are. Do not fret over your mistakes, becuase there is a lot more to life. Think of all the positive things, and the positives that are yet to come. Talk to your friends, that's what I always do. My friends, can always cheer me up, if I'm upset over something. Then, I quickly forget about it.

I wish the best! Have an awesome day!

Stay in college!!! I know it is so difficult. I dropped out when I first started college because of anxiety. I could not muster the courage to walk through the doors or certain classrooms. I have literally ran out of the classroom before, leaving my backpack behind, bawling my eyes out in front of everyone... so embarrassing. Many occasions I cry on the way to school, during class, in between class. So many anxiety attacks. So much time spent feeling like I was internally collapsing. I understand how paralyzed you may feel.

There is a quote:

Don't give up what you want most for what you want now.

What you want most:
Degree
College education
Career opportunities
Better financial opportunities
A mate who is also college educated
The experience
Connections
Fill in the blank

What you want now:
Relief from anxiety
NO panic
To avoid distress
Alone time
Relaxation
Calmness
Tranquility

If you quit now, you are doing yourself a huge disservice, setting yourself back. The fact is... college will not change. College stays the same. So even if you postpone a semester, you will still have to go back and deal with the same exact scenarios all over again. Again, college stays the same. BUT. If you keep going, enduring, YOU will grow and become stronger, and it will seem easier. I wish I had words that could just take your panic and fears away... the truth is, you just have to endure them. Swallow the fear, feel it, and keep on going no matter what. Only you can do this! You can do this!

Hey the semester just started so it's really common to get lost! Don't quit college. I never did quit, but it has taken me a lot longer to finish. It's better just to get it over with, so you won't have to deal with it again!

I had to quit college for about a year and a half due to my anxiety and great depression. Luckily I nor my mother gave up on me and I ended up graduating with my bachelors in psychology last October. Now the problem I have now is finding a job in my field and gaining the courage to interact with coworkers as well as customers. I have a menial job as of now since my social anxiety prevents me from going out there and getting a real job.

I would talk to a counsellor within the school you're at. They will be sympathetic. You are not alone, in that a lot of students have a hard time coping. I feel for you, as I know how badly anxiety can amplify an already situation!

Go the councelling route if it's available. I'm almost sure it would be. They might be able to give you enough leave to work with some treatments or medication and to take some pressure off.

Please don't give up on college ! I let my anxiety make my choices in regards to my education and I sincerely regret it