Does anyone feel like they are (or were) in denial about having social anxiety? I mean sometimes I think that I just don't like talking to people and that I'm just not a very social person...but then I sometimes get the feeling that I'm actually the opposite of that and I'd probably be more social if I didn't feel so vulnerable in social situations. I guess it's just easier to think that I'm not interested in talking to people.
but then I find myself in situations where I'm going to talk to people I don't know very well and I get this uneasy feeling about it. Like just now I was talking to somebody online and they suggested that we voice chat on skype but I ended up giving them a long spiel about not being able to talk well outside of group chats. Even now when the person takes a while to respond I start thinking that the reason he hasn't responded was because he was put off....even though he has responded back a few times so reasonably he's just not looking at Skype all the time.
I think a lot of it stems from this intense feeling I get that I'll say something weird or I'll annoy them in some way.....and also that if they reject me that it'll hurt too much. It's like I have this primal "unknowable" feeling that something really bad will happen if I mess up. It's just there hanging over me demanding not to be questioned.
I feel like it's not a very solid feeling, more a vague gut feeling. I've spoken to my therapist about this gut feeling (although not strictly in regards to social stuff) but I'm not sure if he really understands what I mean. (although I guess I'm just assuming that, he did say it sounds like I presume that I know what other people are thinking a lot)
but then I find myself in situations where I'm going to talk to people I don't know very well and I get this uneasy feeling about it. Like just now I was talking to somebody online and they suggested that we voice chat on skype but I ended up giving them a long spiel about not being able to talk well outside of group chats. Even now when the person takes a while to respond I start thinking that the reason he hasn't responded was because he was put off....even though he has responded back a few times so reasonably he's just not looking at Skype all the time.
I think a lot of it stems from this intense feeling I get that I'll say something weird or I'll annoy them in some way.....and also that if they reject me that it'll hurt too much. It's like I have this primal "unknowable" feeling that something really bad will happen if I mess up. It's just there hanging over me demanding not to be questioned.
I feel like it's not a very solid feeling, more a vague gut feeling. I've spoken to my therapist about this gut feeling (although not strictly in regards to social stuff) but I'm not sure if he really understands what I mean. (although I guess I'm just assuming that, he did say it sounds like I presume that I know what other people are thinking a lot)
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