Mojopin
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Hello. I'm 17 and I've been thinking back and forth about going to a doctor/psychologist and discussing my problems, but I keep deciding to do it later in case I'm wrong/will grow out of it somehow.
I'm mainly anxious in situations where I'm the center of attention. I'm not really mentally scared about the situations (like presentations) themselves, as much as I am about the symptoms that always come with them. Just before it's time, I can feel my body stiffen up, my hands suddenly becoming cold and sweaty, my head feeling hot/cold, I start to tremble, my mouth twitches if I try to smile, I feel a bone in my throat, and my legs are jello. When I start the presentation, it feels really strange, like I'm not in reality, my mind is just blank and I feel very separate of the other people.
This same thing happens in
1) Anything that involves audience listening to me
2) Social situations where there's a group of people (5+ people)
3) When talking with authorities/etc (doctors, policemen, interviews)
4) When I notice someone is paying attention to what I'm doing
5) New people that I'm not used to.
AKA situations where I'm being evaluated (the goodness of my performance or of what I say, on what my personality is like).
As I said, I don't actively mentally fear the social situations themselves. I avoid them often because of the fear of the symptoms and people noticing them. I do admit that I have a low self-esteem and do not consider my points of view as particularily interesting in others' eyes.
I find the fear frustrating because I would like to have more social contacts and be able to be natural around other people like I am when by myself. I constantly overanalyze peoples' behaviour towards me and wonder if they dislike me, and never approach new people if they don't approach me first.
I'm not sure what I should do.
I'm mainly anxious in situations where I'm the center of attention. I'm not really mentally scared about the situations (like presentations) themselves, as much as I am about the symptoms that always come with them. Just before it's time, I can feel my body stiffen up, my hands suddenly becoming cold and sweaty, my head feeling hot/cold, I start to tremble, my mouth twitches if I try to smile, I feel a bone in my throat, and my legs are jello. When I start the presentation, it feels really strange, like I'm not in reality, my mind is just blank and I feel very separate of the other people.
This same thing happens in
1) Anything that involves audience listening to me
2) Social situations where there's a group of people (5+ people)
3) When talking with authorities/etc (doctors, policemen, interviews)
4) When I notice someone is paying attention to what I'm doing
5) New people that I'm not used to.
AKA situations where I'm being evaluated (the goodness of my performance or of what I say, on what my personality is like).
As I said, I don't actively mentally fear the social situations themselves. I avoid them often because of the fear of the symptoms and people noticing them. I do admit that I have a low self-esteem and do not consider my points of view as particularily interesting in others' eyes.
I find the fear frustrating because I would like to have more social contacts and be able to be natural around other people like I am when by myself. I constantly overanalyze peoples' behaviour towards me and wonder if they dislike me, and never approach new people if they don't approach me first.
I'm not sure what I should do.