lonely_down_under

Do you feel very jealous of alot of things in day-to-day life? No matter if its slightly better than you? I admit I do, I feel jealous of most of things, especially of guys and girls who get hooked up easily or become friends... I feel I'm the only one who possess this repulsive personality that no one wants.

No one gives a **** about me honestly, why am I writing this, ignore it if you want. I don't know maybe I'm bored, angry and frustrated. I just feel very alone right now, feels like I cannot form a relationship or find a person who'd love and care for me, like everyone else does with each other. I don't know what to do to become confident and respond intellectually. I feel like I don't matter to anyone and it's a ****ty feeling. :(

Chod77

Yes I get jealous of people. I see what they have and I envy them. They seem so carefree and happy. I know that this is probably just a facade and that they have problems too but I am sure that they are still better off than me.

I feel like I have a repulsive personality too.
Look at this website. There is like 11,000 members. You are not alone.

I like this quote:
"Happiness is beneficial for the body, but it is grief that develops the powers of the mind. Happiness serves hardly any other purpose than to make unhappiness possible.
We don't receive wisdom; we must discover it for ourselves after a journey that no one can take for us or spare us." -Proust


Good Luck

"Whoever despises himself nonetheless respects himself as one who despises."

Psychedelicious

Yes, I do. I feel it a lot. I just feel jealous when I see people better than me, because I just gets the thoughts that I wish I could be that way. As much as I want to respect them and feel good for them, I can't. Instead I just think of how wrong everything is about me. I know that it is wrong, I'm sure you know that it is wrong too, but she because we don't want to feel this way doesn't mean we can just stop like suddenly.

You're not the only one. We have the wrong mindset, and need to think it different ways, but it is really hard to change. I for one cannot feel confident at anything, feel there is nothing I am good at etc etc etc, all that negative stuff basically. I believe that I need to change the way I feel about things before I can help all this jealousy stuff.

lonely_down_under

Yeah thanks for responding. I feel so damn frustrated with life, and I had a girlfriend but I've moved far away from her for further studies and work. Never getting back but I now look at the world here, everyone loves someone or atleast cares.

I know someone does care for me, I have bunch of friends(somewhat) in college who know me a little bit, but I feel jealous because all of them are hooked and I miss my ex-girlfriend now. And I don't know maybe I'm paranoid about this or if this is true, but they all seem to neglect my importance when we're in the group.

No one really gives a **** or asks for my opinion, its like I'm a spectator always or a victim of general bullying consisting sarcasm and taunts.

I feel so jealous of them everyday, it's hard not to hate them, even though I try alot. I'm not a bad person really don't want to be, but ****, **** them all.

lonely_down_under

One more thing, I feel horrible to say this but I also get so jealous of people online... I mean if people are getting popular around a website or a forum, I really hate them, don't know why.

So damn inferiority complex.

proudmummy

I'm jealous of most people. As horrible as it sounds, sometimes I wish something would go wrong for them & they get horribly depressed like I am most of my life.... and I don't understand why I, of all the millions of other people, get given this stupid ****ing illness. So it makes me want other people to be unhappy.

lonely_down_under

Ditto here. I kinda feel satisfied, if not pleased... to see others in discomfort.