just another new person

hello,ive just looked through a couple of posts,read a few.ican definately relate to allot of things.however i wasnt able to find anyone who has the exact same symptoms i get.i tell you bit about myself and my problems.im 28 live in a flat with a room mate and have full-time job but evrey couple of days im faced with anxiety or panic attacks or nervousness im not sure what it is.i got treated for it in the past for 3 or so years but then i stopped treatment.i really didnt think it helped me much all the therapy,meds etc.but im thinking of going back.i dont know how i manage to get through work my panic attacks come on for no reason or atleast i cant see it,for example yesterday at work i just spoke to a women and then i found myself turning bright red and in panic,i was just chatting to her.so imbarassing.situations like that have held hold of my life.i so hate the feelings.i hate when people point it out like oh look how red he is.makes me depressed.i think i have some form of social anxiety and im a bit of a loner aswell.i try hard to meet new people,i try chat to them but i think people are scared of me.i get other forms of anxiety aswell use to get it worse in shopping centres and schools.just like the feeling of being watched.ive also had problems with ocd,the checking was bad.i seem to have some control over these problems now but its still happening sometimes worse than others.why do i feel threats from chatting with people i mean who cares what they think really?i must because it upsets me so much.i feel like a freak because no one around me can relate.thats just me and bit about my life.up and down like a rollercoaster.

Hi and welcome, lostfate!. I understand u perfectly. I have the same symptoms you are talking about.
I was going to a psychologist for 8 months and after that time i got discouraged because i didn' t feel any better. I quitted the therapy and now i intend to go to another psychologist. Perhaps it was my fault not to have been patient enought.
I am not very motivated but there is no other way.
Have luck!!

hey xos, nice to know others out there deal with the same problems.i just found the Facial Blushing Forum so yeah there is thousands out there.im considering the doctor again aswell but ive tryed allot of different meds.from antidepressants to ocd/tranqilizers(excuse my spelling) i just dont know i want to go down that path again.i use to take aropax its a ssri i had much succes with my anxiety/blushing with it,i may ask to go on that again.haved to watch my alcohol intake though.i just want the panic attacks to stop.you never know when it will strike again.im not usually one to talk so openly in forums but i want to do everything in my power to get my thoughts out there,you never know if someone could help or have a solution.idont expect that but its nice to talk about it,they say even that helps

just wanted to let you know about my night.it was horrible,i didnt over drink but i felt so low.panic attack on the way home on train aswell.im really weird and disfunctional.ive realised.ive been chatting allot with this girl from school,id like to ask her out but im scared.im really weird thats why im single.thats why i have hardly any friends.i could hardly hold a conversation out tonite.im just so over it(had enough).sick of looking at people with more furfilling lifes than me when i try so hard to get those things,its bullshit.by the way my friend pointed out why are you single.made me feel great real great.im single because girls think im weird ok.im so misunderstood.i think my anxiety controls my life,it has a hold of me.i live in fear of my next attack it happens for no reason,i go through waves in my life of the panic/anxiety shit look like im getting another one.i try to chat with people but they think im boring and uninteresting.tryed putting up a front and acting all confident and wow im happy.it doesnt work ethier.i have real low self esteem.i wonder how i work 2 jobs and survive i mean whats the point of doing all that when your miserable.you try so hard to change but seems for me its set in stone.only thing im looking forward to is my holidays.im going by myself.all this anxiety all this pain but hey im still trying.