iheart
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Hello. For about 40 years now, I've lived in this hellacious prison we refer to here as social phobia. I know it co-exists in all of us here to varying degrees and places us at different points along the spectrum of anxiety disorder. I'd like to share my experiences from time to time in hopes of imparting some wisdom that might help someone else. Although I've given up on achieving "normal", I have begun the process of self-compassion, self-love and self-acceptance. Through this process, I have learned that all these years of trying to get it right and finally "fit in" was counterproductive and that curing social anxiety isn't about reconnecting with other people, it's about reconnecting with myself.
As many of you know, we feel different from other people for whatever reasons. This leads to disconnection from ourselves as we tell ourselves that we're different because we believe we're so flawed. Somewhere along the way we became hypersensitive to negative external (social) and internal (thoughts), and our minds became fixated on these messages. For some of us more than others, it was easier to become "stuck in the moment" in which our emotions felt wounded, and we couldn't pull ourselves out of it, causing and perpetuating all kinds of personal suffering and anguish. I could go on and on, but we all pretty much know the misery of social anxiety, I'm not teaching you anything new.
I'd just like to say that today I hope each of you will take a moment to step outside yourself - separate you from you problem for a few minutes and calm down. Even if your emotions are charged, breathe deeply, slowly. We must remember to frequently counteract the overstimulation our nervous thoughts produce.
Lately, I've been studying matters I believe contributed to my social anxiety, such as the ego, society/culture, and introversion. There are many more factors, but these three have my attention right now. I have to say - this research is really helping! Learning about how the ego, if mismanaged, can cause toxic shame which is a huuuuuuge source of social anxiety. And how being an introvert in a society that ineffectively enforces extroversion can produce extreme self-consciousness, also leading to social anxiety. If any of you are lost in your anxiety, I suggest getting a better understanding of not only what makes you tick, but why. Introspection might be painful, but it's better than wandering through your anxiety, cluelessly and clumsily, as I regretfully did for so many years.
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As many of you know, we feel different from other people for whatever reasons. This leads to disconnection from ourselves as we tell ourselves that we're different because we believe we're so flawed. Somewhere along the way we became hypersensitive to negative external (social) and internal (thoughts), and our minds became fixated on these messages. For some of us more than others, it was easier to become "stuck in the moment" in which our emotions felt wounded, and we couldn't pull ourselves out of it, causing and perpetuating all kinds of personal suffering and anguish. I could go on and on, but we all pretty much know the misery of social anxiety, I'm not teaching you anything new.
I'd just like to say that today I hope each of you will take a moment to step outside yourself - separate you from you problem for a few minutes and calm down. Even if your emotions are charged, breathe deeply, slowly. We must remember to frequently counteract the overstimulation our nervous thoughts produce.
Lately, I've been studying matters I believe contributed to my social anxiety, such as the ego, society/culture, and introversion. There are many more factors, but these three have my attention right now. I have to say - this research is really helping! Learning about how the ego, if mismanaged, can cause toxic shame which is a huuuuuuge source of social anxiety. And how being an introvert in a society that ineffectively enforces extroversion can produce extreme self-consciousness, also leading to social anxiety. If any of you are lost in your anxiety, I suggest getting a better understanding of not only what makes you tick, but why. Introspection might be painful, but it's better than wandering through your anxiety, cluelessly and clumsily, as I regretfully did for so many years.
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