I am in a similar place, just hoping to ride it out. Taking supplements to try and get back into a functional state. That's an adjustment too. Career change, relationship changes, probably a big move. It's hard to remember why I'm doing it all, but maybe it's a step towards normal. I too think of 'checking out', but something someone said to me a while back has kept me going. He is a braver man than I, and he said,"Remember that you are #1". My internal narcissist took comfort in that. I am depressed, disappointed, and not happy with a lot of things, but I am still human. Being human means struggle and doubt, but it doesn't mean you have to abuse yourself. Stay strong chibiXphantom.